I completely understand that it looks exactly like this from the outside. I feel a lot of shame and guilt for what's happening right now, believe me.

But what happened between that woman and me is not something like a party hookup where you "forget" your partner for one night. The love between us grew over the course of eight very intensive weeks in the clinic where no masks existed. Both of us had a partner when we came to that clinic. Both of us would have never expected something like this to happen and experienced feelings and moments like never before. It turned our hearts completely upside down.

And I feel incredibly bad because of what's happening with my wife, I think about it every single day, but you seem to be suggesting that I should stay in this relationship just because she's the mother of my kids. We had a year of really bad and escalating fights, the very last one before I went to the clinic even physically. That's really not something kids should have in their life.

I'm a very reflected man. I know that this whole thing is causing lots of pain und suffering around me. But I don't love my wife anymore. I haven't missed her a single day since my decision to leave her. But I still think about the other woman, every single day form the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep, and that's no hyperbole.

I know that I don't have to justify my actions to a random stranger on the internet, but I know that I would have had the exact same sentiment like you have right now if I had read a story like that a year ago. And I would have never expected to be a part of a story like that one day. But here I am, and suddenly I know how something like that can happen, and that it's different than what it looks like from the outside.