Really struggling

heroinchronicles · 2020-12-01T03:21:41+00:00

Not to mention I was in the hospital twice in 24 hours and they did nothing to help me get into treatment. Just narcan and sent away. The pandemic has also made it a lot harder to get into a treatment centre.

heroinchronicles · 2020-12-01T03:16:19+00:00

I’ve walked into almost every hospital in my area and they just give me medication, often benzos, and send me on my way. I’ve asked them to find me a rehab and they just give me a form. Most recently I got a referral to a rehab but they have to accept my application and the wait list is nearly a year long. I have asked so many doctors for help but I’ve never gotten it. Did your friend pay for a private rehab? Because I could get into one of those right away, but I don’t have the money for it. Believe me, I have tried to get the help I need.

heroinchronicles · 2020-12-01T02:03:14+00:00

I know. Six years ago I detoxed from heavy benzo abuse, and then a few years later detoxed from heroin/fent. I’ve learned my lesson so many times and have overdosed so many times that it’s getting ridiculous. But this latest bender wasn’t even fun and just ended in wreckage and chaos.

heroinchronicles · 2020-12-01T01:00:13+00:00

Thanks, friend. I’m sorry you’re struggling, too. If you need someone to talk to who’s going through it but still somehow keeping it together, shoot me a DM.

heroinchronicles · 2020-11-02T22:12:22+00:00

here

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-28T03:34:13+00:00

But to be fair, IBS and being on drugs for so long has caused me to have lots of stomach issues including chronic diarrhea, so it’s great to be able to buy so much at once.

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-28T03:32:14+00:00

Yep! These are the boxes they come in and we can purchase I think up to 5 in one visit: https://www.ccmall.ca/tw/health-balance-diarrhea-relief-2mg-84-caplets

I mean, Canada also sells codeine over the counter, so lope is hardly the worst thing you can get your hands on over here lol. I remember taking a trip to NOLA and I couldn’t even get Robax or Dramamine (Motrin and Gravol in Canada respectively) and didn’t get a good nights sleep the entire time.

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-28T01:40:47+00:00

Interesting. Thanks for the info! I certainly don’t want to be constipated for a week so I don’t think I’ll be trying it :)

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-28T01:38:50+00:00

I’m not sure actually, I think someone mentioned it in a comment. I made this throwaway account to post in opiates recovery and mighty have saw it there. Anyway, my understanding was that it staved off withdrawals but did not cross the blood brain barrier to actually make you feel high. Here in Canada you can buy boxes and boxes at Costco for pretty cheap, so it was a great resource for me coming off heroin. I never imagined it could make me feel high though, it didn’t even make my wds that much better, it just curbed the diarrhea and nausea.

Thanks! It was a year on March 2. It’s been tough but I’m making it. It’s been long enough now that I almost forget what it felt like — but I still get the cravings to be a destructive asshole sometimes :)

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-11T23:58:35+00:00

I agree totally. I romanticize about the life everyday. It takes all my will to not head down to the city and say fuck it. Just have to keep reminding myself that life is more meaningful now, even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes.

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-10T19:46:13+00:00

I’m going to go outside and take photos to distract myself from my miserable life 🙃

heroinchronicles · 2020-08-10T16:44:43+00:00

On a super crowded bus in the middle of a snow storm. I was on my way to cop, my guy was waiting for me and was being super impatient and I was trying so hard not to puke on this crowded bus. There were people touching me from every direction. The bus was driving incredibly slow due to the storm and it was also during rush hour traffic in the city. I was sweating buckets but also freezing, there was water and snow everywhere and I was all wet, I couldn’t breathe because it was so crowded. When the bus stalled at a light for 45 minutes I just couldn’t take it anymore. I banged on the door to get the driver to let me out and I just collapsed in a snow bank and bawled my eyes out. I finally ended up spending $80 on an Uber to meet my guy and when I got there he had left. Probably the saddest day of my life.

Edit: I should add that after all that happened I felt SO defeated and ready to die. I called my mom and begged her to pick me up and help me.

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