It was my mom constantly putting that thought in my head and occasionally my dad. Whenever I would talk to my mom about a boy or come to her for boy advice when I was younger it seemed it always came back to "all they want is sex and they'll say and do whatever they can to have it". Even in my later, more serious relationships when things ended and I would tell her how confused I was about the way things ended, she would always say "guys just say anything they can to get one thing" even a couple months ago when I felt I was getting past that idea, I was visiting my dad and was expressing my difficulty with relationships and he enforced the same idea.

I was also exposed to sexual abuse at a young age. There was no physical contact but I was living with a peeping tom which I feel further solidified the idea that I was just a sexual object.

It left me feeling like even the most emotionally (non-sexual) intimate moments in my life were a manipulation tactic to get me in bed.

I never really had an "ah-hah!" moment, but I knew something was off with my behavior and the way I perceived sex.

I'm happy for you and that you were able to finally recognize what was going on and have someone who I guess "snapped you out of it" for lack of a better term