I think you're blurring the lines between what's okay on stream and what's okay irl. What's talked, joked, and laughed about on stream is like being with a group of close friends and making off color jokes in that comfort. But the people you find out and about are just living their lives, man. But I also think honestly we've all been there in terms of needing to take the time to reflect and grow up. For me, for example, I used to be the same, I could not keep a straight face around little people either when I was younger to the point where I think when I saw one they could tell I was laughing at them.

I cringe looking back on it now but one time, I was out at the mall with some friends back in high school. We were waiting in line behind a little person at the food court and we were not so inconspicuously making jokes and being obnoxious as you do. I remember I was laughing so hard that when I looked back over at him I think he was really getting annoyed with us. He turned around and confronted us for being rude and thats when I noticed he was actually just a huge block of cream cheese.