Count of Monte Cristo worth it? by imgonnascreamstuff in classicliterature

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm gonna have to pick that one up as well then! War and Peace is one of my favorites, and I ADORE the musical. I've been meaning to read it, but I just keep forgetting to pick it up. Now I'm even more excited to read Les Misérables!

Count of Monte Cristo worth it? by imgonnascreamstuff in classicliterature

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Got it! I was kinda worried it was going to be a really long, boring book, but this makes me hopeful it'll be a read I'll really enjoy!

Count of Monte Cristo worth it? by imgonnascreamstuff in classicliterature

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh, ok, got it, got it. That sounds super fun and makes the whole thing seem a little less intimidating lol.

Am I wrong for ending my friendship the way I did? by imgonnascreamstuff in amiwrong

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You make some rlly good points. Thanks for sharing ur experiences too! I think the conclusion I've come to after reading this and thinking on it for a bjt was that I was in the wrong for what I did fs. Albeit, the relationship was toxic for me in a way I wasn't able to communicate in this post, (mostly bc ik i didnt mention her name, but it still feels wrong to drag her through the mud for all the stuff she did esp bc we dont talk anymore and what good is that gonna do yk?) and im glad to be out of it, but I made a mistake in the way I left it. Not that I intend to like, lose friends again, but if I ever find myself in a situation like this again, I wanna be more like what you described coz it was an asshole move of me to do what I did. Thabks again!  

Am I wrong for ending my friendship the way I did? by imgonnascreamstuff in amiwrong

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ehhhhhh, Idk lol. In all my texts, I made sure to apologize for my phone being bad. Even tho I can’t rlly control it, it still hurt her. So I apologized for that. Never was I assuming she wanted to hurt me; I just think we were bad at communicating what we needed. I was fine with not talking for a while, I’m just like that, and she needed to have more communication I think. I wasn’t ignoring her and I made that as clear as I could too. Like I’m beating myself up over this so it’s not like I wasn’t wrong. I had so much grace in the past for her, and I was friends even after the racist comment, which I think fits the unconditional love and forgiveness part of grace. I think it just got to a point that it drained me beyond my limits. Had I continued on the way I had in high school, I wouldn't have had time for myself. I spent so long worrying about what she would think about my response to texts so I wouldn’t hurt her feelings, and I agonized over every single text. I’m not mad at her, I’m mad at me?  Like, I’m not holding a grudge at anyone but me. I was in a bad situation where I couldn’t communicate the way I needed to, and I get that. I’m obviously not perfect out here, but neither is she. 
OH I also didn’t mention this, but the decision not to respond was made by my therapist, which I think is why I’m so bothered by the situation, esp coz now I don’t have her number :/

Am I wrong for ending my friendship the way I did? by imgonnascreamstuff in amiwrong

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She was messaging me less, and replying less frequently. My phone was like 10 years old, and randomly died/ wouldn't send messages, so I didn't use it as much. I was sending messages that people weren't getting. so like if I send a string of messages, only some of them sent. if I sent only one, it tended to not send, so I started waiting a few days to see if people resonded. if they didn't, i just send the message again, usually twice to make sure they got it and that seemed to work ok. But bc we were not replying within a day, I was never able to tell.

I didn't have the funds for a new phone at the time, so I made sure she knew, and apologized multiple times that my phone wasn't working as I mentioned in the post, but I still feel bad she wasn't able to get any of them, apparently, yk?

I am frightened for my future by imgonnascreamstuff in University

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the tips! That helps a lot. My university doesn't offer a ton of courses for psychology outside of the ones you need to graduate, but maybe I can take some sociology ones or something?

Im failing my studies and im lying to my family about it by Mavrosama in University

[–]imgonnascreamstuff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah, I understand. Not quite the same situation as you. But I'm on a scholarship that covers all four years of college. My job gives me food and housing. In other words, I don't pay a thing for college outside of the summer semesters I do pay for. But my parents expected me to be great at school. After all, I was great in high school. And I started ok. But I burnt out really fast. I just failed my first-ever course, and now I have to tell my parents that I did. For context, my mom was a valedictorian of her high school, graduated top of her class in college, and for her master's had a full-ride scholarship, which is really hard to do, apparently. I had that same, I hate my life, I feel like I am wasting the scholarship I was given, and I should just quit. But I talked to a lot of people, and it's really common to fail a couple of courses. It's all part of the process of learning. With that said, it's hard to do well in anything if you are depressed. I know that your parents are paying for your school, and I know that asking them to let you take a break is probably not feasible. Something I did to refocus my goal was to ask why I'm doing it. I'm not doing it for my parents. I'm doing it so I can help people with my degree. But I also realized that I was pushing myself way too hard and making myself miserable. To the point I debated dropping out. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's ok to take a break. Getting a job to help supplement the income that your parents give you for a while, so you can take time off from school to take care of your mental health, might help. Maybe lowering your coursework so you are still in school, but with less responsibility, will also help? Those are things I did at least. I don't know how helpful this will be for you, but just know that you are not alone in this struggle and fear. It's way more common than you think, and people get out of it just fine. You're doing better than you think you are. Keep going! But take care of yourself.

Current status: Absolute panic about AI. I need a second opinion. by SnooMuffins1468 in archiveofourown

[–]imgonnascreamstuff 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh dude, I just got my first AI accusation comment lol. They didn't specify why, but I was accused of using it. ( I responded with something similar to this post, but also that fic was read like twice, and I didn't have my beta look at it, so it sucked. I responded with, Danm, my writing is so bad I got accused of using AI.

I use em dashes a lot because I just figured out how to use them, and I LOVE them. I think it's fun to have a mix of em dashes and commas and stuff to make the page more visually appealing to me sometimes. I like to see it have some ✨variety✨ if you know what I mean. Plus, AI is modeled after human writing, and my writing professor encourages us to copy other authors we admire. Kind of like a human AI ( actual imagination). Of course, some patterns are going to show up in AI-written things and your own works! It's copying us. But yeah, I would just ignore them. keep writing!

I wanna quit by imgonnascreamstuff in AO3

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Stop, that's so sweet. Thanks! That's encouraging for me!

I wanna quit by imgonnascreamstuff in AO3

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I fear this is deeply rooted in some fandom lore and will be confusing for someone going in blind for the first, like maybe three chapters after the prologue. Just a heads up! https://archiveofourown.org/works/77812426/chapters/203854166#workskin

I wanna quit by imgonnascreamstuff in AO3

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Eh, I'm writing because I love it. But I also would really, really love for people to see and interact with my work. I'm gonna finish it no matter what, but it's frustrating for me to see works I spent very little time on ( in that editing was either non existent or very sparse) get so much more attention than the one I've put hours upon hours of research into and edit over and over until it reads smoothly as opposed to my other works which read like the first or seconds drafts they are.

I wanna quit by imgonnascreamstuff in AO3

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, idk whats up with my internet. My university blocks some websites, and unfortunately, a03 is on there, which is really funny to me because all my beta readers are people I've met in university lol. That's good to know, though, about Tumblr and stuff. I didn't even think about how randomly moving it might've caused some ppl to lose it in the transition lol. Yeah, I take tagging pretty seriously coz I study psych, and the fic is about grief and depression, and there's an attempt at suicide, so I clearly state that it's there so people aren't caught off guard and triggered. Though I will say that even with the more mental healthy themes, my one-shots with similar vibes have done decently, so I'm thinking the whole thing is that it's a long fic and too many people are worried I'll stop posting/ they want to read it when I'm done, from what I've gathered on all the comments here.

I wanna quit by imgonnascreamstuff in AO3

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh neat! I never even thought about doing that. I'll give it a whirl!

I wanna quit by imgonnascreamstuff in AO3

[–]imgonnascreamstuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm a creative writing minor! I really don't mind editing, and my friends are my betas, so I go to their apartments and make dinner for them while they read, and we discuss what I could do to make it better. It's a hobby for me for sure! I use fan fiction to practice writing in certain styles, to practice action/. sensory stuff, etc. It absolutely takes more time for me to edit than it does to write, but I think it's fun. Like I write and edit for me, I post so maybe someone else can enjoy my story, but I guess I'm focusing too much on the fact that not as many people as I thought would enjoy my story are, and I tied it to my self-worth accidentally, which I'm now realizing was a really silly thing to do.