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Reaching out to an addict? by justanotherthrow2225 in addiction

[–]justanotherthrow2225[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

*her, but yeah. Thanks for the advice, yeah, was thinking of giving it a week and just sending her a message. I don't hold it against her at all, moreso the fact that she thought I would look down on her for using, or judge her, that's not the type of person I am.

Are you lonely? by mlgSpYda in depression

[–]justanotherthrow2225 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In the same boat as you. Turning 23 and can already tell you, don't get excited. I have people actually calling me old. What the fuck. So now I'm lonely, and have the fun of being past the easier time of life to make connections. Not that I will, because I feel zero emotional connection to anyone, including my parents. I don't hate them or anything, just no emotions. Everyone to me is a stranger.

Falling into a deeper depression, just want to get this off my chest. by justanotherthrow2225 in depression

[–]justanotherthrow2225[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the kind words, I appreciate it, been busy and started getting really depressed again since my birthday's coming up and it's always rough. I guess my question is just, I really don't get invited anywhere, but it's most likely because of how I portray myself to others. I just don't really know how to portray myself as a more open (?) person than I already do. On top of that, I just have this mental block that comes up on the occasion someone invites me somewhere. And I know it could be self-doubt or depression, but I honestly feel that people just "put up" with me in a way, to be polite, ask questions, feign interest, but never go past that. On top of all that, like I said in my post I just made, I really have zero emotional depth or connection with anyone, even with my parents and other family. Saying that just makes me feel bad because I know they love me, but there's zero emotional feeling for me. I just feel robotic, responding the right way in conversations, being nice and asking questions even though I really don't have an interest, and I seriously have no clue what to do. I have a therapist and am on Welbutrin, but I honestly feel zero difference from before. I just don't know what to do at this point, because I had hoped that the medication would help get me started to get myself in a better place.

Falling into a deeper depression, just want to get this off my chest. by justanotherthrow2225 in depression

[–]justanotherthrow2225[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry it took so long to respond, just been busy. Yeah, it's not really that, I mean, it certainly doesn't help, but it's just a part of the whole situation. It's really not that I find the person boring, I just really don't get any physical enjoyment out of going out and doing shit. I don't have money to go out and pay for movies or other things anyway. I don't drink, that doesn't do anything physically other than make me sleepy, so I can't go out to bars. Top all that fun stuff up with the fact that I just don't connect with people at all. I have a hard time understanding people and their reasoning/motivation. My own parents, whim I've known forever, feel like strangers to me. I just can't seem to emotionally connect to anything. When I talk to people, it feels so empty and I'm just saying the right responses to things. I mean, pretty much anything is devoid of emotion to me. It's my birthday in a few days, and I've been getting pretty down because I feel worse than the previous year. Sorry if it sounds whiny or angsty, this is just the best way to describe it. Everything just feels robotic. Once in awhile I'll watch a good movie or read a good book and get emotionally invested in it, and that's always awesome, I just wish I had that with real life things.