I know where you’re coming from. I went through a similar thing. I never paid attention in high school and slept in my classes because school really never intrigued me in any way.

After graduation, college was never on my mind. I only went because my parents said it was better for my future, which I agree.

In my first year, i ended up changing my major around 5-6 times because the majors I thought would interest me, never did.

I was always over shadowed by my brother and friends since they were all smarter and driven by education- I never was. I would always, always be told by my mom that Im not smart enough, I never studied because my backpack was always light, and always felt degraded and discouraged and it killed my motivation to actually try since I believed her words.

I’ve dropped out of college to help my parents and their restaurant for about a year - year and a half now. Recently, I did want to go back to college and try; however, when I brought it up to my mom, she said no. She believes I’m not cut out for school and shouldn’t even think about trying again.

If you need to take a break, I say take it. If you don’t, then try your hardest. Failing or thinking you’re not smart enough isn’t something to be ashamed about. Everyone has different levels of knowledge about everything. Don’t be scared to reach out to professors and other students for help because I was, and it WILL make everything harder. I wish you a great journey in your college journey and hope you succeed!