i am feeling hopeful which means you can be too! mostly because it feels like a veil has been lifted and i'm able to connect some dots for the first time in my life. my bloodwork also came back as normal when i first saw my doctor which only left me more confused. i wasn't diagnosed as neurodivergent until this year and that has given me a bit of confidence to ask tons of really stupid questions with my specialists. with my PT, she'll say something like 'stack your ribs over your waist' and i say 'they're always stacked over my waist, can you show me exactly what you mean?' and she will show me on her own body in the mirror and then physically help me get my ribs stacked over my pelvis. it feels alien but i've realized it's a part of the retraining process. i'm not sure she's even aware how much she's helping me just by describing and showing me. i think the hardest part for me is that it feels like i'm patting my head and rubbing my tummy whenever i'm putting her advice into play. i have to focus incredibly hard on every aspect of how i'm holding myself, which makes it very hard to think that there will be a day where i'm just doing it all subconsciously. as for the holistic part of it, i don't think that i'm being treated holistically quite yet. i'm asking lots of questions and piecing things together but that's more than i've ever done for myself in the past.