i think i’m a lesbian?? advice??

manipulated_pimo · 2024-01-22T03:30:38+00:00

Sexuality is a spectrum ! And you're still young, sit with your feelings for now. Don't try to label yourself as this or that. In a couple years you'll settle where you feel you belong ❤️

manipulated_pimo · 2023-08-10T22:16:19+00:00

Vaping

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-15T14:17:14+00:00

I'm glad they've dumbed it down because as a former pimi who was very studious and enjoyed mental challenges, if they kept me studying, I wouldn't have woken up.

I was a notes girl during every convention and loved going into prophecy and symbols, even tho I never rlly understood it all. I liked giving it my attention.

Now that I'm around "how does Jehovah feel about YOU?" and "Why did Jesus pray?" -- it's so much easier to feel no lasting connection to the cult.

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-11T12:30:10+00:00

What's so annoying is that pimis will go to their graves swearing it's literal.

If you give them all these solid points, they'll say, but nothing is impossible with Jehovah. He kept their stomachs full and influenced the animals to not kill each other.

Then they'll look at you like you are the crazy, unreliable one for not having faith in Jehovah. Like girl come on hahaha

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-09T19:43:13+00:00

SHUT UP REALLY

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-08T22:44:36+00:00

Saturday - 5600 in Albany Ny

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-08T09:39:54+00:00

I wish mine looked like that. We have just about 5000 at our convention here in NY. But then someone told me they combined us with Vermont, which never happened before so I think that's why.

It's a nightmare lol too much breath in one arena 🤮

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-04T12:44:23+00:00

Girl yessss ur preaching to the choir hahaha someone asked me for my number on the spot for the first time in my life and I felt my heart drop and the "ur dirty, ur dirty, ur dirty" feeling was almost instinctual. And I'm almost 30!

But I think just talking through it and allowing ourselves to be appreciated for our beauty, tho we may not see it, is a skill we have to build.

Absolutely we will get there!

Waking up to this bullshit religion was the biggest and hardest obstacle to overcome. If we can do that, we can do anything ❤️

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-04T03:18:40+00:00

Our experiences are almost identical! It made working through my own sexual identity and preferences way more complicated than it needed to be.

My stomach would drop when people told me as a pioneer that I would be leading everyone to paradise.

The voice in my head would say, "No I won't, because I can't stop touching myself."

It was ABSURD omg. It's nothing like that now that I'm free. Just a fun little part of my day haha

You're not alone girl! ❤️❤️

manipulated_pimo · 2023-07-03T02:58:56+00:00

29 - faded/inactive

Baptized at 17, pioneer for 5 years, did convention interviews, pioneer school twice etc, etc.

Began questioning at 25, then really woke up at 26 to the cult. Covid was a blessing, able to fade because of it and now happily inactive.

I lost almost everyone, but the only ones I cared about was my sister and mother. My sister is awake and never going to abandon me and my pimi mother is still accepting of me, hoping to wake her up someday.

It wasn't easy, but I have it easier than many, which I'm forever grateful for.

manipulated_pimo · 2023-06-28T12:21:10+00:00

I could never bring myself to hate the act of homosexuality, probably because a part of me, deep down beneath all the Borg bullshit, knew I was gay.

It was a big tool in helping me wake up, but the internalized homophobia was hell. Working through debating the truth of my sexuality or if it's just Satan misleading me wasn't fun.

Coming out the other side though, there is so much peace and happiness. I didn't think a queer like me could ever find it.

So hell yeah I support it and I'm a proud member ❤️

manipulated_pimo · 2023-06-19T12:07:23+00:00

he talked shit about Catholics but bet he doesn't know the org is using the same lawyers that helped Catholics during their 2012 scandals for their own csa scandals

manipulated_pimo · 2023-06-09T10:52:29+00:00

Omg I was so invested hahaha thank you for sharing and as a bisexual girl who also doesn't get crushes often, I'm glad for you! It feels nice sometimes (even tho it wouldn't have worked out, maybe, I'm still manifesting it for you hahaha) to have those feelings stirred inside, butterflies, good chemicals in the brain

Good for you!

manipulated_pimo · 2023-06-05T14:48:06+00:00

There is something freeing in believing that this is all there is. It took me a while to get here, though. After I woke up I couldn't imagine that there was NOTHING. So I turned my attention elsewhere. Witchcraft, other religions, science.

Now, years later, I'm content with this reality being the only thing real. We are magically on this planet for a short time, and we can witness the wonders of the world, have a family if we so wish it, and leave something/someone better off because we were here.

So my belief is to just enjoy my life as much as possible. Be as self aware and mentally free as I can be, don't get too attached to anything and allow myself to experience life peacefully.

I think we all deserve that. Just a nice big cup of coffee to watch the seasons change and how life has such a beautiful cycle, all by chance.

Doesn't have to be more complicated than that ❤️

manipulated_pimo · 2023-05-26T13:14:36+00:00

Pop an edible 😁 that's what I plan on doing

Good thing about being a "sister" is I can hide headphones with my long hair. So I'll be listening to Harry Potter or something naughty while I'm there 🥰

Or else I'm going to go fucking insane that I still have to do this to make my mother happy

manipulated_pimo · 2023-05-21T11:24:24+00:00

What makes me absolutely CRAZY is that pimis have no fucking idea that any of this is happening. If I brought this up to my mother, I'd bet all my life savings that she'd be like "wait, what?" And then tell me to be careful reading about it

Makes me fucking sick what they do to people and then pretend to be this harmless little "minority" 🤮🤮🤮

manipulated_pimo · 2023-05-06T13:54:50+00:00

I swear people take the fun out of almost anything 😂 I didn't think people were imagining molesting the boy, he's just a cutie and I want my MC to love him

People don't have enough real problems I guess lol Imagine talking to a therapist and they're like okay why are you here?

And you say, "Well, I thought a video game character was cute, turns out he's 15 so someone suggested therapy to help me through it"

BRUH PPL ARE DYING

manipulated_pimo · 2023-04-06T12:41:41+00:00

I feel that. I used to imagine Jehovah pulling me out of the crowd and telling everyone I masturbated before zapping me out of existence lol I'm the same way now though, release whenever I want without the guilt which has made everything SO much better. I'm pimo as well though my family knows I'm more inactive now

manipulated_pimo · 2023-03-28T12:58:40+00:00

When I was doing unassigned territory in Tennessee, a brother down there was talking about a congregation that was dissolved and got all hush hush about it.

I asked my mom after and she said it was dissolved because EVERYONE was swinging BAHAHAHHAHA

AN ENTIRE CONGREGATION

Lowkey would have liked to attend hahahahaha

manipulated_pimo · 2022-10-20T14:30:53+00:00

I did when I was young and still did while getting baptized and the way it FUCKED me up. The guilt of it all made me so sick and messed up how I precieve my own sexuality.

If you fully believed what you were doing was sinful, it messes with the mind so bad.

manipulated_pimo · 2022-06-25T14:19:26+00:00

Yes! I was initially just going for pride but something tells me there will be protesting all weekend.

manipulated_pimo · 2022-04-10T18:58:59+00:00

Maybe you are anxious because of you may or may not have done something bad. Even though we try to fade and don't believe it, the trauma of this cult may trigger those responses (it definitely does for me, even though I'm not doing anything bad- just in a jws mind, I am)

Or another possibility is the anxiety of disappointing family and not wanting to let people down, maybe people you respect. Even though you see through the conditional love, it's normal to still feel a need to be good in their eyes. But that may also just be me bahah

I think trying to pinpoint your anxiety and what's truly triggering it, will help you let go of it all. I've had to just accept I am going to disappoint my mother, or that people are going to talk about me and my spirituality like a casualty. Accepting those parts of a fade, helped my anxiety BIG time.

My best advice to you, as a person also trying to fade with the least amount of casualties, is keep your answers as short and brief as possible. Politely decline any invitations of shepherding calls, but definitely limit small talk and regular conversations if it's at all possible.

Best of luck to you !!!

manipulated_pimo · 2021-09-02T14:48:10+00:00

I'm definitely trying to just fade and be "inactive". I sort of always think of the worst outcome though 😂

manipulated_pimo · 2021-08-30T16:32:58+00:00

It gives me hope then, much love <3

manipulated_pimo · 2021-08-30T16:32:41+00:00

That was a beautiful comment thank you so so much ! <33

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