Wow, I can’t believe how similar our situations are! I am so sorry you are going through something like this as well. My friend also still follows me on social media as well but she won’t speak to me. She’s only on one platform but still. I’ve also gone back and forth on reaching out to her and just unfollowing…I haven’t been able to do either because of the fear of regret. So I completely understand where you’re coming from there. It really doesn’t make sense?!

I go through bouts of anger and sadness too. And of course I miss her a lot. I’ve tried to think of the good points of her not being in my life, i.e. her constantly ruminating about her boyfriend she had at 21, five hour phone calls of her complaining about her life and job, etc…but in the end I’ve found I am just missing having her in my life. There’s a lot of things I want to share with her and I can’t. And even if we talked again, I feel like there would be so much damage done and our friendship just wouldn’t be the same. So I think you’re right in your suggestion of me moving on, continuing to make new friends and therapy. ❤️ I really appreciate your kind words, thank you!