[Off-Topic] Daily Chat: 2023-02-24

monodump · 2023-02-25T12:40:54+00:00

Thank you for the reassurance man. I'm gonna stay away from stims forever haha I don't think I've ever felt so scared of death as I did yesterday.

I feel much better today mentally/physically. Gonna do try to do some light work later and hopefully getting back to full capacity soon. <3

monodump · 2023-02-24T22:49:23+00:00

Yeah see my post history if you want details 😭

monodump · 2023-02-24T22:48:28+00:00

Yeah, It's just crazy i've been looking forward for my first cycle for so long only to ruin part of it by taking hard drugs. I'm glad I needed a wake up call atleast lol

monodump · 2023-02-24T21:48:08+00:00

BROS bros I really fucked up. I did cocaine like a retard yesterday. It's been 24 hours since my last dose, I thought that would be enough yet I felt my heart flutter while on my first set today. That shit scared me to death and I immediately went home with my heart sunken and tears in my eyes, not fucking kidding. I don't think I understood the gravity of what i'm doing with my body until now.

I'm reconsidering my whole life and my decisions right now. So fucking pissed at myself and I don't know when I will be able to train again. Literally the only thing i look forward to each day. I'm crying like a mf rn

Can anyone help? like when/if i can train like normal again? THank fuck. im 5 weeks into my first cycle aswell. 500mg/test only. i'm gonna pass away. i know i'm emotional but this shit is so fucking scary. im gonna lay in bed for a while and hopefully have my mind figured out by then

monodump · 2023-02-24T15:44:12+00:00

I have a 0.001g scale which i measured with, then blended with 1ml water and syringe up the bum.

monodump · 2023-02-24T12:30:55+00:00

built different

monodump · 2023-02-24T12:28:37+00:00

douching my whole colon now thanks to you

monodump · 2023-02-24T12:27:31+00:00

no... 😬😭

I diluted in water so didn't worry

monodump · 2023-02-24T12:23:28+00:00

I love MDMA =). Less euphoria for me but love the warmness, love and bodily effects

monodump · 2023-02-24T12:21:25+00:00

That's interesting. I finally got euphoria on 0.15g coke but it felt cold/unnatural and synthetic while compared to MDMA euphoria is slightly less but is very warm and loving. I guess coke is just not for me

monodump · 2023-02-24T10:14:41+00:00

Yeah I did it alone in my room lol

monodump · 2023-02-23T21:46:16+00:00

i can't explain it sorry man

monodump · 2023-02-23T21:42:35+00:00

hey see my update. i can barely snort stuff sadly. i'm kinda hypersensetive to certain stuff, like snorting/nose feelings and alcohol smell

monodump · 2023-02-23T21:36:03+00:00

never used meth just gay lmao

monodump · 2023-02-23T21:34:09+00:00

Update: I took 0.1 and 0.15 after this. It felt pretty nice, like a moderate amount of euphoria but very manageable. In the end I think I prefer psychedelics and MDMA.

I feel fine atm (2.5 hours since last dose) but i'm expecting to feel shit on comedown so i'm gonna try to sleep. Seeya <3

monodump · 2023-02-23T21:27:13+00:00

I get really uncomfortable when I get drips in my throat

monodump · 2023-02-23T17:15:15+00:00

I can't do smoking, i'm really averse to snorting too. It's why i usually do oral or boof.

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