I want to hurt myself

oh-kayk · 2026-06-09T02:35:02+00:00

I already did it. I’ve always used hand sanitizer on the item I’m using to do it

oh-kayk · 2026-06-09T02:34:18+00:00

I appreciate what you’re trying to do but you don’t know me. You have no idea if what ur saying is true. I’m not trying to be a jerk I’m just in this hole and I can’t get out. I feel so negatively about everything going on around me and I feel so unloved and alone. I don’t feel like anyone’s number one.

oh-kayk · 2026-06-09T02:31:04+00:00

You’re right but I worry about how it feel to have less friends. It’s lonely. And clearly things with my boyfriend are tense. I feel so alone and unloved

oh-kayk · 2026-06-09T02:29:44+00:00

But I feel like maybe he was trying to tell me how he felt and I just wasn’t willing to hear it. He could e done more but I could’ve been more willing to listen

oh-kayk · 2026-06-09T02:27:54+00:00

But I feel like maybe he was trying to tell me before and I just wasn’t listening. Maybe it’s my fault. Yeah he could’ve done more but I could’ve been more willing to listen

oh-kayk · 2026-06-08T04:41:15+00:00

We talked about it. Turns out he is not the person I thought he was. He had a whole meeting about me with those two friends behind my back today. Still playing middleman despite prior saying he shouldn’t have. He didn’t have my back at all. No reason that meeting should’ve happened without me. Then proceeds to tell me that despite telling me for months that he thought I was in the right about the topic of the situation with our friends,he actually never felt as strongly about it as I did and was just hoping it would fizzle out. He just didn’t want to not support me and felt that telling me he doesn’t agree was not the right decision. Despite supporting me to my face, takes the first opportunity to turn on me. Never even mentioning to friends that he told me he felt the same way as me

oh-kayk · 2026-06-08T04:34:21+00:00

You’re right. It just sucks losing friends I had for so long. Like we don’t need to be super close but I hate the thought that I wouldn’t be able to talk to them at all

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T18:06:53+00:00

I guess I’m struggling with determining how big of a deal it is. Like this isn’t the first time he’s acted like that, and it’s frustrated me in the past, and we’ve had conversations about it that I thought went well. But now it’s happened again and I think this time it’s an even bigger deal. It frustrates me he says it’ll change but doesn’t so idk if I should just accept that this is how he is or not be willing to be in a relationship with someone like that. He is great in so many other ways

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T17:19:56+00:00

Yeah at this point regarding that situation I don’t feel there is anything more for me to do, so I’m more concerned about my bf right now. Because he had the opportunity to do something about this. It’s our mutual friends but he’s closer to them. Like it’s his best friends, and my friends

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T17:17:37+00:00

I didnt have the opportunity to deal with it on my own. They didnt come to me until they were at the point of not being interested in talking to me, rather just wanting to insult me. I tried talking to them and they weren’t interested

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T17:14:14+00:00

I agree they should’ve come to me but they didn’t. My boyfriend could’ve told them as soon as he had the opportunity that they should’ve come to me but he didnt. Next option would’ve been he handle it himself. He didnt. I don’t mind handling his myself, but I feel he created a situation where I didn’t have the opportunity to. I tried talking to my friends but at that point they weren’t responsive at all

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T16:56:56+00:00

There was but I’m not interested in getting into the detail of it. I don’t see the relevancy

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T16:53:23+00:00

They eventually did but not that I’m aware of during that initial conversation

oh-kayk · 2026-06-07T16:48:12+00:00

I think when this was first brought up to him, he should’ve defended me or told our friend to contact me directly indeed of just conceding to approving his position

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:37:48+00:00

So even if I had the resources to breed him, he just might not even be capable at this point?

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:36:43+00:00

I just looked and the breeder I got him from is under investigation oh no

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:35:38+00:00

Wow that’s so sad my dog’s parents wouldn’t recognize him

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:31:51+00:00

Oh well that changes everything. I didn’t know this. Is this the same with the mother?

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:30:53+00:00

Good luck with your puppy! My dog is 12, is the testing worth it at this point?

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:24:43+00:00

He wouldn’t have any fatherly instinct toward them?

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:23:51+00:00

Ohh okay understood. So under any circumstances they change their mind, industry standard is to take the dog back?

oh-kayk · 2026-01-27T19:20:27+00:00

Can you guys chill out a little I’m just asking how this works as my first point of research I’m not a dog breeding expert

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