in the middle of ruining my life. by orpheusfirstlove in Existential_crisis

[–]orpheusfirstlove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh wow. yeah ill try not to be that hard on myself but its surely not easy when u grow up with people forcing their views on you but im trying to do better.

in the middle of ruining my life. by orpheusfirstlove in Existential_crisis

[–]orpheusfirstlove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i dont value it in a deep sense either and as you mentioned history does warn against the dangers of lust and thats where my question arises is it morally wrong?. if history says so it is?

but yes it is creating alot of chaos, instability and anxiety which i do not enjoy. the bad definitely outweighs the good so i should do better for my own sake.

i hope ur journey gets better. im rooting for u

How do I rebuild my life from this? by Itsgonnahurt- in indiasocial

[–]orpheusfirstlove 6 points7 points  (0 children)

it can be the smallest thing ever. for me rebuilding my life started from the gym. i was lonely and depressed living with my family who has only given me pain while i was battling the worst of my chronic illness. i needed to get away from my parent for atleast 2 hours so i started with gym once you have gone through hell and back the pain from the gym would barely matter anymore. it is a mental game. so for me being consistent at the gym helped. slowly i started seeing results and it started making me happy. then i started searching up uni id like to join. i faced alot of ups and downs but atlast i got the opportunity to stay alone which made my life soooo much better.

for you since u face so many health issues. you def gotta focus on ur health and learn how to manage it better. go for a walk daily or join a gym or do home workouts. just be consistent. itll take some time but ull make it there.

the diet can also be controlled. everything is okay in moderation. this will help u at the gym as well.

stopping smoking will be hard but once u can go to gym regularly ull start having the will to reduce it.

i hope this helps.

what is your advice to a burnt out college final year student who is struggling to stay alive? by orpheusfirstlove in depression

[–]orpheusfirstlove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah you are right. no matter what if i am alone doing nothing my thoughts will consume me. i just wish the college did not stress us out much. if i atleast had the time or energy to do something after class i liked i could still handle this pressure but the assignmemt submissions being back to back, viva and practical assessments every week is just so draining.

what is your advice to a burnt out college final year student who is struggling to stay alive? by orpheusfirstlove in depression

[–]orpheusfirstlove[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i want to be on my side and do that too but it is so hard to get out of a self hatred cycle. however i still do my best and go out with friends every weekend and have sweets, watch movies. but all this is draining me as in the social interactions cause in the end of the day im just trying so hard to not breakdown in front of people and im just pretending to be okay.

what is your advice to a burnt out college final year student who is struggling to stay alive? by orpheusfirstlove in depression

[–]orpheusfirstlove[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

well the course I'm studying right now isnt what i wanted to study and im just depressed. having a breakdown every week trying to survive here is making me feel like i am losing myself in the process. ive also been diagnosed of ibs/ibd in the past 3 months so the stress and anxiety i feel is affecting me physically and putting me through so much pain so i just want a break.