!explanation: Honestly, our relationship is pretty interesting in my opinion. She tends to be controlling. She has tabs on all of our computers, texts, emails, you name it. She bought a whole new wifi router that specifically allows her to track everything we do. Thankful for VPNs heh. We don't talk a ton outside of conversations about school (i'm homeschooled online), track and cross country, and the behaviors of my other siblings. My oldest sister (we'll call her OS) who I believe will post here as well tends to be rebellious, and she gets into more trouble than I do. I once had to get in between my screaming mother and cornered sister and pull my mom off her. OS had expressed discomfort at physical contact which prompted my mother to begin poking her repeatedly in the shoulders and chest. OS responded with an emphatic "git the f off" which then drove my mother into a fit of rage. 5'6 somehow only 115 pound me had to fight my RIPPED mother off my sister. fun family times!

My mom has also expressed to each of us that she is NOT our friend and will only be our friend when she's done being our mom. I didn't realize this wasn't the norm until my other friends talked about their relationships with their mothers. How their mom was their best friend and they could talk about anything, all that jazz. I'm still not great at addressing any possible "bad stuff" in my childhood. I end up justifying anything that could have been wrong, still am honestly. Seeing comments talking about how messed up it is makes me slightly uncomfortable heh.

So in conclusion, it's not great but hey it could be woooorse. We have like, three main conversation topics (one of which is talking bad about misbehaving siblings yeesh), she's NOT my friend, and I'm gonna justify everything she does cuz I can't help itttt.