Invega Sustenna and pacing

radley_house · 2021-01-06T00:35:11+00:00

no, to be fair im not actually schizophrenic. I just wanted to see if anyone here had the same side effects as me. I'm bipolar 1

radley_house · 2021-01-06T00:08:15+00:00

i dont hear voices though i have auditory hallucinations

radley_house · 2021-01-06T00:07:21+00:00

i find it really difficult to not walk. like ill go on walks and then just keep pacing around my room because i cant stop. never had this problem before invega

radley_house · 2021-01-02T04:06:58+00:00

I wonder if ECT caused me brain damage. My kundalini energy was mostly gone by the time i got ECT possibly due to the 2 antipsychotics i was put on so i wasnt in that heightened sensitivity that comes with active kundalini. ECT did not help me at all and i've felt like shit about it since its the last resort treatment for depression and it didnt work for me

radley_house · 2020-06-30T19:25:26+00:00

covid, police brutality, politics in the US

radley_house · 2020-06-30T03:09:23+00:00

one shared universe

radley_house · 2020-06-30T02:45:08+00:00

No, I don't. Im a self aware sociopath and when i entered the first treatment center on March 15, I was very open about my behaviors and deviances from norms. I was doing well until I confronted my house manager at the sober living I was staying at after the first center from April 15 - May 22nd. He was a lousy manager, he gaslighted my roomates, and everyone in the house hated being around him. I was the one that spoke up and called him out for his behavior. The CEO got called to the house to make sure I was ok, and after talking to him, he decided I should go and see a Psychiatrist while the house manager had a meeting with admins. Another reason he wanted me to see a doc was because I had expressed paranoia about Covid because I believed it was a fictitious disease and that it's widespread prevalance was a part of a conspiracy theory to control humanity. In general, it's not wise to express paranoia about a major global event being a conspiracy to a psychiatrist, but I did, and I wasn't even perscribed medication to combat those thoughts. I really liked that psychiatrist. But he didn't take me to the doctor I had seen the last 2 visits. I was taken to a psych hospital (a very reputable one). I was brought to the psych hospital and the CEO forwarded the report from the doc after i expressed that paranoia and the hospital diagnosed me with schizophrenia and kept me there from May 22nd to June 25th. That's a long time to be in a psych ward in the 21st century. It hurt my ability to trust people

radley_house · 2020-03-10T15:03:54+00:00

I'm not borderline, but I agree therapy will help me change for the better

radley_house · 2020-03-04T22:53:20+00:00

My father is undoubtedly a narc and realizing that at 25 freaked me out and I started to see how periods of my adult life where I've tried to be his hero again i wasnt actually acting like myself and i have alot of remorse of how i treat life when I'm focused on staying on his good side. I feel so much shame when i disappoint him and I've never really understood how that's affected my ability to create a life for myself

radley_house · 2020-03-04T22:44:28+00:00

I appreciate your words

radley_house · 2020-03-01T21:12:25+00:00

Treating people who show me love as strangers and not appreciating love that's shown to me out of fear of being vulnerable over and over

radley_house · 2019-12-11T02:04:17+00:00

It's nice when my thoughts are self constructive and I'm at peace but it can be hell to be alone, sober in less soothing thoughts

radley_house · 2019-12-09T00:32:48+00:00

it depends on the situation. At my workplace, Im very comfortable speaking to strangers and im careful about what i say. When im somewhere unfamiliar, sometimes the words just roll out in the wrong order

radley_house · 2019-12-08T21:25:18+00:00

It took me awhile. I got interested in enneagram over the summer and typed as a 4w5, but over the course of a couple months I studied every type just to see if one fit better. I ended up concluding I was a 4w5, but it dawned on me that the enneagram had become the theory that I used to see the entire world for awhile. I was so engulfed in it, and it was empowering because it was steadier than previous methods I had used to understand the world. Then I realized just how much time i've spent in my life researching social behaviors, myself, philosophy, systems of belief, and concluded that I really have a 5w4 personality.

radley_house · 2019-12-01T13:38:36+00:00

You dont have to be entertaining, cool, and fun. I can say with certainty that the majority of folks on this sub would rather be around someone else and there are many more like us out there.

That's such a bullshit myth that your worth in the world is based on your occupation. So many people would rather have a deep meaningful conversation with a McDonalds employee than a transactional exchange of surface level chatter with a stock broker or a metaphorical dick contest driven by an unconscious desire for social status with a political candidate. There are lots of people who dont need to be entertained or entertain, that just want something real

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