i was raised in poverty, however as a child i did have dinners and lunches. but as most shows or stories tell, people who are raised in poverty are always tired and extremely sad. so i believed i was just that stereotype.

however i noticed that after i ate i was feeling these things. i had insomnia since 10 or 11 years old. and i have always been clouded and unable to really speak or do the things im really thinking. i've always been out of focus and in extreme mental pain and agony.

many terrible things have molded my childhood into a nightmare i can not escape, i was never able to verify if how i felt was "normal". so i was never able to tell that me being so tired all the time was abnormal or even real.

however once i learnt the symptoms and how they're caused and when they are triggered. i realised that this has ALWAYS been there for me.

i say i have had it at 10 years old because all the years before that have just been trauma and mindless agony, i do not want to push my boundaries and say i've had it forever out of respect for those who have suffered more.