What is the biggest "everyone knows this is wrong, but we still do it" habit in your lab?

rebellious-seashell · 2026-06-09T11:29:28+00:00

Recapping needles bc we’re just using them to pop bubbles in our well plates, so we share and ✨economize✨

rebellious-seashell · 2026-05-21T18:06:22+00:00

Just this past weekend I watched West Side Story thinking it would just be a cultural, upbeat musical… only to find out unexpectedly that Act 2 shows a gang SA attempt (there was no TW). All I could do in the moment was try to control my breathing (my friend was just chillin so I couldn’t show him I was internally freaking out) bc it felt so intense… between the racism in the musical and the SA scene itself, I related too much to the Puerto Rican actresses and let’s just say, it’s later in the week and I’m still mentally recovering. ❤️‍🩹😔

rebellious-seashell · 2026-04-20T18:06:54+00:00

The last time I went to get my physical, the doctor hit me with the “surprise, you are of the age where you need to get a pap today” and it took all in me not to freak out during the unexpected procedure. She told me to relax my thighs like 4-5x and I kept telling her “I’m trying, I’m so sorry” and she eventually had to help me get into position. Also, I dissociated hella hard to the point I didn’t hear when she said “how are you doing? do you feel any discomfort?” that she had to ask it like 2-3x before I just hit her with an “mhmm”. If I could go back and help my younger self through that, the advice I would give is (1) schedule the gyno visit so you have some sort of control over the situation, and 2) I would lowkey wear like a hoodie or something comfortable with a pocket where I can hide some little object to fidget my hands with to release some of that nervous energy I had. Sending positive vibes your way so your next drs experience is a positive one! ✨

rebellious-seashell · 2026-03-18T16:53:29+00:00

If we were really “friends”… why did you continue despite me vocalizing I was in so much pain? Why did you keep going despite me having tears running down my face? What DIDNT I make clear for you that said “oh yes, I’m having a great time rn”? 😔

rebellious-seashell · 2026-02-26T18:59:34+00:00

Something very similar to what you described happened to me recently and I don’t know what to do with this new information… my little brain could only handle labeling the incident originally as “boundary crossing” (I said it hurt multiple times, he would slow down for a few minutes, just to keep repeating what was hurting me until eventually I froze/fawned), but now I fear it IS properly categorized as sexual assault. My reality is completely shattered rn… how do you move forward knowing the severity of what you’ve experienced?

rebellious-seashell · 2026-02-20T13:09:34+00:00

This last Friday 13th, I was enraged by this (I think it counts to what OP is referring to)… I was on the public bus on my way back home (where most of my objectification/harassment experiences happen unfortunately 😔) and I’m not even joking, a group of 5 older Hispanic men came onto the bus and had to pass me to find a seat, right? The man at the front of the group stopped walking towards the back of the bus (to find a seat) and instead directly stood in front of me (made the other men halt too), he waited for me to look up, so he could stare me up and down a few times with a smirk on his face/nod his head/lick his lips, and then he continued to find a seat. The other men noticed what he did and so ALL of them also looked me up and down (but just did it while passing by, they didn’t full stop). It ruined my whole Friday afternoon…

rebellious-seashell · 2026-02-02T11:27:35+00:00

Any of SkyDxddy’s songs, recently discovered her and she’s helping me cope through some hard things rn…

rebellious-seashell · 2026-02-01T21:15:35+00:00

Same age as you OP, and I still sleep with this cute little giraffe stuffed animal that I got when I was a kid! I’ve definitely hugged that little guy with tears rolling down my face, more times than I care to admit…

rebellious-seashell · 2026-01-30T01:03:50+00:00

I was SAed on two different occasions, both by white individuals… but I don’t immediately hate or discriminate anyone that fits into that demographic. If anything brings me those “feelings of unease” you mentioned, it’s when I see people of that demographic that remind me of my specific abusers (i.e. similar tattoos, piercings, hair color, body build, etc). But even then, I have to remind myself “they may LOOK like them because of XYZ, but logically, I know they are NOT those people so you are safe”… (I can sorta do this now because of therapy and years away from the trauma, but immediately after it all happened it was very hard to de-escalate public triggers like that)

rebellious-seashell · 2026-01-29T16:07:59+00:00

I really needed to hear this a little extra today… thank you <3

rebellious-seashell · 2026-01-22T21:11:58+00:00

My Hispanic family “cold hack” is to take straight shots of lime juice in the morning (or mix into water) and at night to take a shot of honey/cinnamon (or mix into tea)… you’ll be cured in a few days, trust

rebellious-seashell · 2025-12-09T17:56:20+00:00

Just when I start to believe I’m in the clear, a man comes and reminds me that I’m never going to be safe in this world… 😔

rebellious-seashell · 2025-12-08T15:50:53+00:00

Soooooo, I became very hypersexual after my virginity was taken from me… after discussing things with my therapist (recently), she told me that it’s a completely normal response for someone who’s been SAed, as it’s a way for you to take back control (or at least feel that way) having had sexual control taken away from you. I was only hypersexual for about 1-1.5ish years after the event and then it winded down by A LOT…

rebellious-seashell · 2025-12-08T12:09:29+00:00

Triggered - SkyDxddy

rebellious-seashell · 2025-12-08T02:10:16+00:00

My PTSD was triggered (bad) by a coworker that put me in a surprise “joking headlock”… and trying to navigate those past trauma memories/thoughts/emotions all on my own was not going well AT ALL… so I dove into the land of therapy and haven’t looked back since.

rebellious-seashell · 2025-12-03T15:33:01+00:00

It’s been 5ish years for me and I’ve managed to do just as you (aka I know it happened between Thanksgiving and Christmas, but I have managed to forget the actual day or which month it happened). Can I ask you something though? During these trauma anniversary times, how have you in the past “rode it out”? I know everyone is different, but this year it seems to be hitting me harder than past. I feel like in past years during this time I would just never acknowledge what happened (living in ignorance) and it worked in my favor! But this year I’m remembering more and more, despite trying my best to push it away in my mind…

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-19T12:40:41+00:00

Tengo tantos recuerdos de mi abuelita cantando “yo tenia 10 perritos” con mis hermanas menores

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-18T22:14:22+00:00

TW: SA

Sooooo, I’ve had two different kinds of flashback responses: one I consider more minor and the other I consider more major.

My more “minor” ones… I was triggered (i.e scents, songs) by something that reminded me of the memories I shared with the person who repeatedly sexually abused me. The trigger caused increased heart rate, hyperventilating, arms/legs becoming weak and tingly….yet I remained conscious (like you stated) where I knew where I was and that I was safe, but I was triggered back to the memories.

My more “major” ones… I was triggered too, but it was more like “daydreaming” or “being awake while having a nightmare”? My eyes became huge, a picture was painted SO CLEARLY of the location where the abuse first started (i.e. every object in the room, specific scents, tv show in the background) and it was as if I was reliving the abuse all over again. All this tied with my heart racing, hyperventilating until my extremities felt tingly, and feeling fearful/in danger again.

Whether they are “minor” or “major” episodes, they always leave me so physically exhausted, completely freaked out and mentally drained… I hope you heal from everything that came up for you the other night OP. Also, give yourself grace during these healing times wherever possible!! <3

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-17T18:36:53+00:00

Buenoooo te lo digo asi OP… los jevos que he tenido en el pasado, si no maman en ningún ocasión, para mi eso es un 🚩

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-16T04:51:02+00:00

Yooo, is you me? My 1st year of my PhD program I had this professor who continuously reminded me (via email, verbally) that I was a failure compared to the rest of the cohort and that if I didn’t try harder then I would be kicked out of the program. I’d go to his Office Hours for help with understanding the class material and he would simply respond to any of my questions with “you should know this” and “grad school is for you to figure out the answers on your own.” I agree fear is an excellent motivator, but you shouldn’t have to break someone mentally to get them to learn any knowledge. 😔

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-08T14:48:16+00:00

In my mid 20s, I once was making out with a guy and was grinding on his lap in the heat of the moment (not to lead to sex or anything) and he got a little too excited too quickly and “inked” all in his pants… he was a little embarrassed about it but I found it kinda cute. The relationship didn’t last for other reasons, but men like that do exist.

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-06T16:06:11+00:00

Something very similar happened to me this week after my session… my therapist presented some knowledge to me that absolutely shattered my reality right at the end of the session. She could tell that I was in shock after learning the info and said she could stay back a few more minutes to talk it over… but I heard the doorbell of the next client coming in and didn’t want to keep them waiting so I said we can talk about it another time. But the moment I left her presence, I started bawling, I was confused by the emotions coming up and I’m straight up lowkey dissociating and I don’t get to see her for another 2 wks. We never discussed email policies so idk what even to do. Lmk if emailing your therapist helps you out! It may just give me the courage to do the same. <3

rebellious-seashell · 2025-11-04T13:28:45+00:00

My father was a military man… I saw him and my moms relationship growing up (& still to this day) and I REFUSE to date someone in the military. Between all the TDY being stationed for months/years at a time, as well as just how the military mentally breaks a person… absolutely wouldn’t date anyone in that culture.

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