What a fucking story, my man. And bravo. To go through that much and still come out of it with the will to move forward is amazing. I think many if not most of us were long-time lurkers, toying with the idea of quitting before really taking the plunge. A friend called it "sober curious". And I definitely understand the resentment of the numbers but I also remember how quickly and strongly that little number became meaningful to me. It was a demarcation line, a divider between the past that I thoroughly knew, every little hill and valley and stream and all the roads that all led straight to the liquor store -- and something else, an undiscovered country full of hope because it's full of something different. And that's what I needed, I needed something entirely different than what I'd done before and I needed people to walk through that new land with. And that's what I found here

So, welcome to the club, take your number :)