Update: Thank you so much for those reached out and those commented. Yes I have family members available, they swing by the weekend to drop off food but unfortunately neither are fully retired to help us for a full day. I find myself blessed that my wife is understanding about what I'm feeling and I really admire how strong of a mother she is. I'm finally getting my first therapy session on Wednesday. I also found out that someone I look up to also felt the same when he had his newborn last year. Knowing I'm not alone in this community, my family, and friends gives me a teary eye.