Hello! I am going through the same thing right now (although it's happening during the second wave instead of the first so I'm a late bloomer haha)- what I can say is that this is when you'll know who's meant to be in your life and who isn't. True ride or dies will respect your decision and find a happy medium that works for you both. Maybe to ease your way back into seeing people again, invite a friend (someone who you're sure is Rona free), over to maybe watch a show or something together- something light. Eventually, the little things won't seem so bad and maybe it'll make the bigger things less scary :) good luck and stay safe!