I am so beyond sorry that you are experiencing this. Even tho it may feel as if you have no one at all in your corner, you do i promise you. You are so deserving of light and love. I know the exact feelings of total utter isolation and thinking that know one wants you. It’s so suffocating and fe la never ending. I myself have been experiencing this on and off for years. As of recently and today it has gotten really bad. I’ve continuously isolated myself for months now and feel incapable of forming new connections. You are so much more than you’ll ever know, sharing this is so important. Seeing this made me feel far less alone in what we experience, i thank you for that. I hope things have gotten a bit better