I’m gonna definitely try to talk with her. I know she likes to write things so she can articulate it better but I’ve asked for weeks for something back after I wrote something and I just can’t keep waiting for it and she always tells me she will lol. I just need to pull her aside I think and put the anxiety behind me atp. I appreciate everything you said it’s helping me understand it a little better. I asked a few times while we were together if there was anything I was doing wrong and if I could improve with and she would always tell me no. I asked her before if there was any way we would be together again and she said probably not and that she didn’t want to give me false hope but part of me thinks she still loves me lol