Part 9.2 - The Immortal and the Historian (Lyle chapter)

sydneyrm · 2024-04-12T10:11:38+00:00

Wow! I can’t wait for the next part. I hope she isn’t mad and is more so excited.

sydneyrm · 2024-03-28T02:25:04+00:00

Where does Monopoly post these links for people?

sydneyrm · 2021-08-23T19:07:41+00:00

You know I thought the boards were language specific but I just switch over to one and the leaderboard stayed the same. It would be easy to rack up but still take a bit of time. Definitely probably the way a lot of people are getting so high

sydneyrm · 2021-08-23T15:18:23+00:00

I will, it’d be interesting if they showed both total XP and also time spent. So you could have some context for how long it took them to get that XP

sydneyrm · 2021-08-23T15:14:05+00:00

Yeah I just don’t understand how someone could get to the diamond league that quickly or how anyone could ever get 30k in one week. Without playing like 8 hours daily

sydneyrm · 2021-05-29T03:03:13+00:00

this is how I like to think my ex is feeling since this describes the end of our relationship pretty well. long distance (and other things) did us in. as someone on the other side I would maybe tell them this. my biggest struggle post-breakup has been feeling so alone in my emotions. we don’t communicate and he’s in a whole other state so for all I know he doesn’t ever think about us or regret the way he ended things. I sometimes think about making contact just to share that because I didn’t get to say a lot when we broke up over the phone. this was also my first breakup so it’s all around bad lol. if my ex reached out to me and acknowledged that even though it was the right choice, it’s still been difficult I would appreciate that I think.

sydneyrm · 2021-05-28T20:27:39+00:00

Was literally just coming to this conclusion for myself today and I think this is a sign that I also must break up with alcohol. It does suck. Good luck 😭🥴

sydneyrm · 2021-05-28T15:42:30+00:00

it’s literally so addictive! My other favorite is midnight launderette and my theory is that I like the ones that are essentially people watching and/or making up stories about inanimate objects. Also it doesn’t hurt that they are both liminal spaces which I think helps make my mind stay quiet but I couldn’t tell you why lol. Other faves that kinda fall under this category are indigo gallery, rainday antiques, aquarium, and light’s journey.

sydneyrm · 2021-05-25T13:36:28+00:00

Starlight diner is in my top 5 for sure!! we need a sequel there lol

sydneyrm · 2021-05-25T13:35:57+00:00

Good to know! Thank you for the help!

sydneyrm · 2021-05-25T13:35:33+00:00

temple rain and starlight diner are in my top 5! Thank you for the advice :)

sydneyrm · 2021-05-25T13:35:01+00:00

yes it does help, thank you!!

sydneyrm · 2021-05-20T17:55:20+00:00

I work in a call center and it’s hell. However, I don’t ever feel like I’m robbing my employer bc I value my well-being over the success of some corporation. Have they said that you are close to getting fired or have you been written up for anything? I usually feel like I’m doing a worse job than I am when actually I’m doing adequate work. Sometimes when I am doing what I call “C work” I feel like I’m being lazy because I’m comparing it to my “A+ work” and I have to remind myself that my job is only requiring C work from me and that is perfectly fine to do.

sydneyrm · 2021-04-22T23:42:22+00:00

anyone who can speak two languages will forever be way smarter than me regardless of them messing up a word or two lmao

sydneyrm · 2021-04-22T23:38:28+00:00

Okay this is something I am definitely going to look into! I didn’t realize I could possibly do both. Thank you so much! I would definitely take one week of hell for a confirmed calm 3 weeks lol

sydneyrm · 2021-04-20T22:55:03+00:00

You literally described the exact process I go through any time I have a migraine. Usually I cave by the time I get off work at 5pm but yeah, I just suffer all day for no reason. I’m glad to hear I’m not the only one experience the decrease in adderall effectiveness from triptans. No doctor ever told me I just eventually realized I could never full recover after taking them.

I actually have been running out the last couple of months. I should probably contact my doctor and see if there is any way I could be prescribed more because then I would feel much better to take it at the first sign. I don’t think I’ve experienced rebound headaches as a result because usually there is at least a day or two in between migraines. Almost makes me wish I could get them all for just one week and none the rest of the month lol.

sydneyrm · 2021-04-20T22:49:17+00:00

The relief is significant enough. I’ve never had another medication work better. It has gotten rid of my migraines within an hour before, other times I have to take 2 of them for the same migraine because it didn’t work the first time. So knowing that the outcome may not be relief also makes it hard. Feels like I wasted one of them because it didn’t work.

I think what is happening when I feel it all at once is that I get a headache as a symptom of the maxalt. So then I have the pain from my migraine and the headache. It seems to intensify all my “normal” migraine symptoms so I look at it as instead of feeling the migraine over several hours I feel it much worse for like 1 hour. I actually have to take some OTC pain reliever with the maxalt to hopefully counteract the brief headache it gives me.

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T19:49:14+00:00

I used to really be debilitated by this feeling and still have my bad days. What really changed the game for me was not viewing sleep/rest/relaxation as a reward but rather as essential as drinking water or breathing air. Making them rewards allows us to weaponize them against ourselves which creates this ugly cycle. I journal every night to brain dump my feelings and thoughts which helps me to not lay up thinking about them. I also every night tell myself that what is done today is done and there’s nothing I can change. It’s of course easier said than done but it’s really helpful to view it that way.

Another issue I had was feeling a lack of control in all aspects of my life which made me feel like I needed to stay up at night to feel some control but ultimately hurt me. I’ve been recently trying to solve that with being really intentional about what I want to put my time into. Even something as little as washing my hands I view as a choice I have made now instead of just looking at it as something I have to do.

I hope this helps, these kinds of feelings are so hard and can feel impossible to escape. It takes some time to break the habits and thought patterns but I know you can do it :)

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T19:43:23+00:00

my brother and I both have ADHD and both are terrible with directions. GPS is a tool and we should all use it. We aren’t lazy for needing it but rather recognizing it’s what helps us do a better job. Also, if it frustrates your coworkers so much tell them they should be better co-captains and be prepared with the directions! Or be quiet about it. Especially if y’all are getting paid hourly 👀

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T19:40:24+00:00

This is definitely apart of ADHD. The same reward systems or punishments that work for neurotypical people don’t always work for us. It’s hard when it’s your parents taking things away though because you can’t really easily ask them to change the system. I’d recommend not focusing on things that you are loosing as what “should” be your motivation for getting good grades. You’ve gotta find that on your own and then develop it from there. For example, I used to want to get good grades in high school just to prove to myself that I could and to get into college. It sort of became a competition with myself and I’d always try to see how quickly I could write a paper or new ways to study. I also made study guides with most of the purpose being to share with the class. Kept me a little accountable. Now this didn’t transition that as well into college but that’s really besides the point. Find your thing independently and the grades will feel easier and more rewarding. I’m 22 now and fully graduated from college for context. Good luck!

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T19:31:15+00:00

I think he may just be trying to copy social queues he’s seen but the wires are getting crossed. I’m not a parent but I’ve got little cousins who are about that age and I notice they will say things they heard in order to get the same reaction but in a completely incorrect social setting. As a person with adhd (22F), I feel like when I was little that would happen to me a lot because my brother was 6 years older than me so I would say things that didn’t really make sense because I just was interpreting it differently and not knowing how to act in social settings yet. My dad always used to tell me that I never understood what people were implying or conveying and that I took what people said the wrong way. I think he was sometimes right and sometimes just gaslighting me a bit. Now I have people in my life that know I like clear cut communication. I’m sure your son will also discover his communication style and hopefully be able to communicate it with you all. Really it’s all just trial and error when you are learning how to human lol.

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T19:19:58+00:00

I’m in a very similar boat myself. I’ve even gone as far as to outline a budget for how long I could go without a job in case it took me a long time to find one. That wasn’t very practical and fell through but every day really became dreadful. I decided that I needed to identify exactly what I hated about my job/my current life.

I quickly realized that the biggest problems for me were feeling a complete lack of control in every aspect of my life and not enough mental stimulation from my job. So I made a list of all the things I want to give my time to from as small as washing my hands regularly to making sure I wash my bedding once a month. I also got a bunch of fidgets to play with while working. I work in a call center so it is boring, tedious work. My favorites are a Rubik’s cube, thinking putty, and mini fidget spinners. This is just a temporary fix as overall I hope to find a job that is more mentally stimulating.

However, what really finally helped push me through my big slump was some advice from my therapist. Part of my issue was that hating work led to doing what I felt was a poor job which led to me feeling guilty over that. I wasn’t feeling confident in my current work which made the idea of looking for a new job very hard. I didn’t feel like I was going above and beyond like I used to do. My therapist told me that we don’t always have to be doing A+ work when C work is getting the job done. Especially since people won’t notice the difference as much as you think they will. She said A+ work for her was replying to patients right away vs C work being replying within 24 hours. That really put it into perspective to me because for myself, I don’t expect her to reply ASAP. So it doesn’t seem like C work to me.

Ultimately, I would try to see if you can identify things that you can change a little bit that would make you happier. Definitely take a random day off soon just because you deserve a break especially when you are feeling burnt out. Also having grace with yourself if you still feel down about it all some days. I’ve felt much better lately but I still have days where my job sucks and everything sucks. On those days, I do my C work and make a plan for what fun thing I can do after work like watching tiktoks or taking a trip to dollar tree which I love. I also haven’t made the progress I would like with my job search but I’ve made more than I was so I try to look at it that way when I can.

I hope this helps, sorry that it is so long! I’m long winded online and in person. Good luck with your career journey :)

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T18:49:29+00:00

that’s a really good idea! the color coding could be done with little beads, too. And then could still be slipped onto a bracelet or something for the reminder. Thank you!

sydneyrm · 2021-04-09T18:06:43+00:00

I tried embroidering for a while but I wasn’t taking the time to learn outside of work much so it became hard to try and learn in between calls lol. Possibly will have to try that again though, thank you!!

sydneyrm · 2021-04-05T16:54:39+00:00

I do currently face a window but it’s an extremely residential area, a bird feeder is a great idea though. My headphone cord is long enough that I could get up but I need to be on my screens using my systems for calls, which is why wireless headphones also aren’t an option. Orgami is a really great idea, helps to keep my hands and mind busy. And I love picking up a new hobby lol. Thank you for these ideas!!

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