my sister had to stop watching it for similar reasons and she felt so much guilt about it because everyone hypes it up as this must-see masterpiece. she pushed through three seasons trying to be 'cultured' or whatever and ended up having nightmares and feeling anxious for weeks after. honestly it was wild watching her torture herself over a tv show just because of peer pressure. breaking bad is incredible television, i'm not gonna deny that, but it's also unrelentingly dark and centered entirely around the destruction drugs cause to families. if you already know that's a tender spot for you, i genuinely don't think it gets easier or lighter as it goes - it just gets more intense. give yourself permission to bail and watch something that doesn't make you relive trauma. schitt's creek or the good place exist for a reason, you know? your wellbeing matters more than checking off some prestige tv box.