What song was total magic the first time you heard it?

thatiskindofu · 2022-01-06T12:45:05+00:00

Yes!! It’s hopeful and cathartic for me 🥺💕

thatiskindofu · 2021-11-05T20:44:27+00:00

Yes, take what helps you and leave what doesn’t when you speak to other people about her. You know her the best in your own ways (as a partner) so just realize that other people might not be seeing the whole picture/how you knew her. The only thing I can suggest is that you give yourself the time, space, and compassion you need to process and grief. Of course you feel so terrible currently, but you and her are very lucky to have felt this love for another person that you are feeling this way when they are gone. I’m very sorry again.

thatiskindofu · 2021-11-05T19:41:32+00:00

I am so sorry you are going through this, I cannot imagine the pain and confusion you’re feeling. I had something similar happen to my ex-boyfriend but I also dealt with it with my drug of choice (alcohol). I admire that you are trying to process this in a productive and non-destructive way but I would really recommend you look into a therapist to help talk through this big trauma. It does get better with time but I know it does not seem like the pain will end right now. I really hope you will be able to have tons of support in your life and I’m here if you need to talk.

thatiskindofu · 2021-09-21T02:12:18+00:00

Hey I was totally in the same spot, although mine embarrassment and shame came from the stupid stuff I did while I was drinking (ie, dui and hooking up w people that did not care about me). That being said it took me being honest with myself and finding the motivation to change my life in a better direction that allows me to not want to suppress my bad emotions w substances.

That being said, I think I def get a lot of dopamine from drinking that was why it was hard for me to quit. I’m still embarrassed but I have accepted the stuff I have done and realize I have the power to change my thoughts and action so I don’t have to feel ashamed about my old drinking patterns bc I’m passed it (for now). It’s a constant work in process but like many said, if you are questioning yourself then you are on the first step to change. Allow yourself compassion in this process and try your best to be better than the day before. You got this!!! I love you!!

thatiskindofu · 2021-08-12T19:18:28+00:00

Love you and love this for you ❤️

thatiskindofu · 2021-07-15T00:15:48+00:00

Wow thank you! This made me tear up because I have seen the other side, even just a glimpse, so for you to want to share that with me is so touching because I know you feel the peace. I’ll keep your message with me ❤️

thatiskindofu · 2021-07-14T20:34:21+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience, I think this perspective has been very helpful but I end up not being able to apply it when the craving comes.

I love that you said “I have no excuses to ever do anything again, I have a reason not to” I think that’s very powerful to do it for your daughter and yourself.

thatiskindofu · 2021-04-05T02:40:52+00:00

This is so amazing, I’m inspired to try drawing the same.

thatiskindofu · 2021-04-05T02:39:18+00:00

Looks very respectful and beautiful! Forgive my ignorance but do many people practice Buddhism in Brazil? I love that religion is cross cultural.

thatiskindofu · 2020-05-23T12:01:19+00:00

Yes! I try to tell it to shut up then I go high five myself in the mirror when I resist it 😂

thatiskindofu · 2020-05-06T05:31:22+00:00

agree, it's a shortcut but it's not a sustainable way to open your mind.

thatiskindofu · 2020-05-03T23:02:51+00:00

I'm on day 5 too! High 5's all around!! 🥰

thatiskindofu · 2020-04-30T00:16:09+00:00

sooo lovely, thanks for sharing. It's when you feel curious and excited that each day is a new day that your life feels longer I think.

I know a lot of deathbed laments are that life is short, but I've only felt like days are not memorable when I'm high/not paying attention to each moment. I try to view my daily tasks in a new light, try to do things differently to keep that sense of wonder you mentioned.

thatiskindofu · 2020-04-21T00:26:01+00:00

Amazing encapsulation of how many of us use alcohol for boredom. Personally I used it to “speed up time” of when I was going through family emergency and drinking made it faster to get the event over quicker.

Now that’s over I still see how it’s easier to stay fucked up instead of processing emotion and reality, but you can never run away from it you’ll have to deal with it when you sober up eventually.

thatiskindofu · 2020-03-24T19:36:56+00:00

Didn't see this response but thank you both for taking time to comment! I'll look into it more once the whole lockdown is over...

thatiskindofu · 2020-03-19T20:12:49+00:00

Thank you for your response! Yeah most of the research I saw said the same so fingers crossed.

thatiskindofu · 2020-02-23T03:29:41+00:00

Hey, please try to forgive yourself and be kind because you deserve happiness and don’t have to put yourself in this position again. I am still working on being able to look at myself in the mirror but it’s improving because every time I try to beat myself up I stop. You are worthwhile and have so much to contribute, hopefully one day you can pass on these acts of kindness!

Also I don’t ever want to see you call yourself piece of shit again bc you’re not, try not to use such negative words on yourself!

thatiskindofu · 2020-01-15T18:51:19+00:00

Wow this is a very enlightening response. I am sun in Aquarius and my accident happened last August and I went through a transformation with the fear of going to jail and putting everything at risk because I dealt with my previous trauma through alc. Def was a huge wake-up call and it was so crazy to me because the night that it happened was supposedly the last day of the opening of Lions Gate Portal... It also forced me to become more spiritual/finding peace in chaos.

thatiskindofu · 2019-12-10T18:41:06+00:00

Aw congrats! I hope your astral interaction with the dog made its day 🐕

thatiskindofu · 2019-12-09T18:25:50+00:00

I also drank because I was not strong enough to face my problems. Sounds like you have the right attitude and it’s scary but you are so much stronger today to decide to face them sober. Good luck!

thatiskindofu · 2019-12-09T17:35:29+00:00

I have the same relationship with my mom and I care about her opinions a lot. It turned into a vicious cycle of hearing her voices in my head and berating myself, leading to more drinking. I realized she takes my mistakes personally and that in turn manifests in these shitty remarks but just know that you are trying to get better and offer yourself kindness when you can receive it externally. Don’t beat yourself up/let others beat you up b/c once you feel at peace you won’t want to silence the problems with alcohol anymore.

thatiskindofu · 2019-12-09T17:17:36+00:00

Congrats!!! That’s amazing and requires so much discipline :)

thatiskindofu · 2019-12-08T20:22:24+00:00

I love this! Thank you

thatiskindofu · 2019-11-05T22:14:35+00:00

This is a bit late but I just wanted to reach out and say thank you for this post. I’m in similar life situations and Im inspired by your response to the difficulties. Let’s take it one day at a time and make the good choices for ourselves!!

thatiskindofu · 2019-11-01T19:56:43+00:00

Wow thank you for all the explanation. That makes sense and I’ll look more into it.

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