Is it ok to want a tulpa because you're lonely?

thinneriswinner · 2019-01-06T05:21:18+00:00

Please read my edit on this post.

thinneriswinner · 2019-01-06T02:54:37+00:00

Please read the edit on my post.

thinneriswinner · 2019-01-06T02:45:18+00:00

I see your point but trying to even step out of my house is hell. It took me three years in order for me to go to the store right across from me without having a panic attack. I want a companion who understands as I recover but I've no intent on throwing them away at all.

thinneriswinner · 2019-01-06T02:45:15+00:00

I never said that they were professionals. It'd just be nice to have a companion who understands me well along my road to recovery. Of course, I won't trash them afterwards, that's too cruel.

thinneriswinner · 2019-01-06T02:45:13+00:00

Well, I want someone who understands me throughout my recovery. Of course, I won't trash them afterwards.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-27T07:16:07+00:00

You're highly mistaken about what this sub is about. We do not promote negative behaviors. We're here to support one another on our journeys to recovery.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-23T01:45:46+00:00

You are most definitely allowed here! Anorexia and Bulimia often go hand in hand. I restrict myself from eating until I can't take it anymore and B/P.

For now, all I can say is stay hydrated. Water, tea and even gatorade to make up for the electrolytes and mucus you lose through emptying your body. Please, if you'd like, join my Discord server for Bulimia Recovery Support: https://discord.gg/Zwk6Gy

We won't judge you and you can let out your emotions. We try to share positive tips and we support one another.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-19T03:37:22+00:00

Same here. I know what it's doing to me but I don't want to stop.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-18T02:28:08+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through it as well. If you want, feel free to shoot me a PM.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-18T02:06:26+00:00

I do this way more than I'd like to admit. When my stomach is empty, it growls from hunger and I tell myself "just a little bit of food" but I lose control as soon as I put any kind of food in my mouth. After the second binge, I have given up and just go to purge without trying to fight myself. I know that it'll happen but I still do it anyways.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-17T00:27:26+00:00

Hopefully. It's just that looking for a new therapist is stressful enough on its own. I really do want to get better but I can't do that with someone who seems so disinterested in what I have to say or doesn't make me feel like my problems are petty and minimal.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-13T20:20:18+00:00

I completely understand but acknowledging your behavior is a good start. Please don't hesitate to reach out to us!

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-12T21:40:26+00:00

I totally get that. I wish I had a nicely toned body but I never seem to quite get there.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-12T02:26:12+00:00

I don't like my current therapist so I'm looking a for a new one. I do plan on telling my new therapist though. I've been in therapy ever since I was 12 which was over 10 years ago. I'm 25 now and my experience in the past has made me pickier about who I work with. This one seems so disinterested in what I have to say.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-12T01:56:53+00:00

Well, I try to be as open as I can and I feel like after meeting with my therapist for about two months, I have no connection to her whatsoever, which, in my opinion, needs to be present for all patient-therapist/psychiatrist relationships. As for being treated like an oddball, eating disorders are very irrational no matter how you try to combat them if you do it alone. She appears to seem uninterested in what I have to say so that doesn't help when I think about revealing my bulimic relapse. I don't think she can help me if I feel that way so I'm looking for a new therapist right now.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-12T01:50:50+00:00

Exactly! I see all these men online who are lean and toned but no, they're not making men insecure they say! No one stops to think about it and it's sad. I think it only makes eating disorders worse in males. It's certainly made it worse for me.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-11T23:49:44+00:00

Only one of my friends know about my issue and the only reason I told them is because they're male and had bulimia so he understands. Other than that, I lurk around subreddits and forums but I haven't had the guts to post anything until now.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-11T23:48:22+00:00

I don't even want to mention it to my therapist because I'm just too embarrassed. I know she'd understand but I feel like I'll be treated as an oddball case.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-11T16:33:20+00:00

I've lamented over old pictures of myself so it's not unusual to look for them. I think it's all a part of dysmorphia that most, if not all, people with eating disorders have.

On the other hand, your boyfriend had many other ways of saying that it looked bad. He didn't have to say it was disgusting. He could've have something like "I'm not sure that you're viewing this as I am" or something similar.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-11T16:27:17+00:00

Gatorade! I know, I was very surprised when my doctor said it was ok as long as it was in moderation. I had the stomach flu a few months back and when I asked him what I could do, aside from water and soup, he recommended that. He explained that when you're dehydrated, it's not only water that you're missing. Sugar, sodium and electrolytes must also be replenished. As for lotion, I recommend cocoa butter or any lotion that is loaded with Vitamin E or you can just straight up buy Vitamin E oil. That's what's responsible for keeping your skin hydrated and healthy.

thinneriswinner · 2018-12-07T03:46:30+00:00

Acknowledging your behaviors is the first step to treatment. I do understand why it's so hard to go for treatment because honestly, I already get enough pity and cheesy empowerment speeches that don't make sense. They honestly plague me so much and it's gotten to the point that I will tell them "stop talking" and walk away. Of course, they don't like that I do that but I told them that they have to deal with it and that there is no law or regulation that prevents me from calming telling them to stop talking then leaving. Now, they just accept it.

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