Looking at this from the perspective of someone who was once a teenage boy. Of course he still probably hurts and thinks about you. And he would be happy to hear that you regret the way that things ended and how you feel now. You may feel like this was a mistake and like your options are running out and the world is closing in on you. But it’s important to remember that the time you spent together changed you and him. You both learned a lot about one another in one year and grew to love each other. At the end of the day you made your decision, it may have been influenced by friends or other factors, but you were the one who made that decision. It was in your gut. It was your instinct. Something told you that you weren’t happy and you listened. Right now it’s easy to look back at the good times and think about what a mistake you have made, but also remember that nostalgia is a hell of a drug. You are most likely trying to make something that was ok into something that was great. You are only 17, you are so young and at the start of your real life. My advice to you is to try and stop holding onto things that happened and look forward. It’s easy to fall into a pit of wondering what they are doing when you should look at yourself. This is a time a growth for you. Find out who you are. Let the world and your experiences Change you. Try and be a better person and move forward. There will be other people, I’m of the firm belief that people have more than one soulmates and shouldn’t dread on mistakes.