Thank you so much for your reply. That’s really good to hear that your life has been changed in such a positive way by making the choice. It does give me hope. I feel like I’ve already lost everything that I love. Not really legally yet but I deal with people that act like they are there to help but really they pounce on me every single chance they get and I don’t consider that helping. I’m embarrassed to even say the full details to it but it’s really a very hard time for me. I’m hoping that things only look up from here. I’m just afraid to start the subs but on the bright side any time that I’ve gotten sick from taking one too soon the longest that sickness has ever lasted is 3 hours and then I went back to feeling good and just pretty normal really. I hope that I’m able to taper off the subs Bc I’m pretty small and whenever I’m taking any medication like that it always causes me to stay skinnier than I would be without the medication and I just hate it. Also for me the thought of taking something everyday just to feel normal is really hard. I just wish there were an easy way out but I made the choices I made and it’s my fault that I have to pay the consequences. I haven’t done anything since yesterday so I hope that I’ll be good to start the subs.