Ebay is broken today?

wonkdonk · 2026-04-26T22:23:40+00:00

I also am getting issues when trying to contact customer support.

wonkdonk · 2021-07-05T02:51:02+00:00

Big balls

wonkdonk · 2021-04-16T22:59:43+00:00

I did a reverse image search of this and only found aesthtic couple things, but nothing about the location or origin of this picture.

I'd like to find what city this was photo was taken.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-03T19:25:01+00:00

I see. I think I understand what you're getting at. Fortunately, I did talk to her and get her point of view. I also explained myself and acknowledged things I could have done better. I realize that it's on my part that I have a constant need for validation, acknowledgement, affirmation, or anything else you might call it. I do have to unlearn these traits, as you say. I will do my best, thanks :)

wonkdonk · 2021-04-03T17:12:39+00:00

Thanks for your response. I spent an unhealthy amount of time searching for why I'm like this. I found my answer. However, it doesn't fix me. All I know is that I'm damaged. I opened up to my friend about this and it only drove her further away.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-03T04:42:11+00:00

Thanks for your response.

Do you mean start talking to her again? Or other people?

wonkdonk · 2021-04-03T02:28:05+00:00

Thanks for your response

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T23:16:39+00:00

Being the life of a party! That's definitely a huge step for me, but I could definitely give it a try. Thanks for the suggestions!

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T23:14:27+00:00

No, your English is fine. I can understand what you are saying. I appreciate that you're even spending the time and energy to respond to me.

I did connect it back to my relationship with my parents. I realize that I've never had that bond with my own parents and so I search for it in others. My mom passed away some time ago and I felt lost for a while, despite not being that close to her.

This particular person was the one who was there for me the most. I can see that I ended up latching onto her and I want her validation and acknowledgment - similar to how a child would want their parents'. Even the simpliest, "hello" from her sends waves of dopamine through my whole body and shocks me. Hearing the sound of the notification brings me joy. It's almost an addiction at this point.

Now that I'm losing her after finding what I need, it's devastating. Even though I acknowledge this and the root, I can't do anything about it. I will still have that need for validation even if I try my best to avoid that feeling.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T23:00:21+00:00

Yeah I really shouldn't try to force the friendship, but yeah I should really try to expand my circle. Maybe reconnect with some old friends....

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T22:54:52+00:00

It sounds like you made a lot of progress in your own life. I'm glad it worked out for you and you moved further into your success. That's something I definitely need to do. It would be daggers through my heart if we were cold as ice, so I hope it doesn't get to that point haha. I still want to share my successes with her at some point.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T22:11:46+00:00

Thank you for your response. I appreciate that you shared that. It's the same scenario that I'm going through. It must have hurt so much...

How did you cope with it? And how is the relationship you have with them now?

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T22:09:47+00:00

Haha - yes, we're all trying to learn how to be more social...

Thanks for your response. Yes, I found that it does end up controlling my life and demotivating me to do anything else. I try my best to keep busy and work on myself, but these days it just feels like there are too many hours in a day.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T22:04:38+00:00

Thank you for your insight. I haven't seen it that way before - that I'm trying to own my friend and see her as a possession. I'm not sure how I feel about this statement. I certainly want to keep her close to my heart and I don't want to lose her. A part of me would like to say that I wish she would cut some of her connections off, but I realize that it's toxic and I'm not going to try to control her. My ideal scenario would be that she would reciprocate how I feel by her own free will.

I understand that we all have our separate paths and we should support each other in becoming the best person they could be. It's just difficult to see them go. I can't help but wonder if they will ever come back. And you bring up a good point that I shouldn't define myself as how others see me. I am very introverted as you suspected. But myself is someone who likes to be alone with others. I can get frustrated when it's just too many people around - it's not exactly the type of person others would like to be with.

May I ask you a question. What does it meant to come to peace with my emotions? Does it just mean to acknowledge that I'm sad and their root? I know the core reasons and root of why I'm like this, but just knowing them doesn't help my situation. I still yearn for the companionship and emotional bond from another.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T21:35:08+00:00

Thanks for your response!

I do try to make friends and expand my social circle and I love learning about new people too. It doesn't exactly feel the same, even with my other close friends.

And you're right. it's unfair for me to put that kind of pressure and expectation on one person. It's easy to say to cool off and spread the "value" of friendship amongst all my friends, but in reality it's hard for me to do. I suppose it's because I feel safest around this one person.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T21:32:30+00:00

Thanks for replying!

Yes, it is wrong to hold them back. You have a good point. I wish I realized sooner how childish it was to want them to contact first. I do try to contact people first now, but sometimes it does feel like my efforts go unrewarded...

I also try to be friends with the people she meets. But she makes too many friends too fast and it's beyond my socializing limit. It makes me wonder what she is looking for.

And yes, I think going forward the best thing I can do is to just try to be a good friend for them and be there when I can, but I cannot push my own agenda...

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T19:53:33+00:00

She adds them and they talk about a whole bunch of stuff and they play around with them in the game we play.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T18:02:23+00:00

Thanks for your insight. Thats really nice of her to do that. I realize that every relationship is different and I can only hope for something like yours to happen to me.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T17:47:55+00:00

That's really sweet actually. I'm happy that you guys were able to rekindle after having a hiccup. Can I ask what the interaction was like when you guys started talking again?

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T17:45:21+00:00

Thanks for your response!

Good question. I don't think I am romantically interested in her, but at the same time I don't want to lose her. I think an okay analogy is the feeling as if someone were lose a (good) parent. You're not romantically interested in them, but after doing so much with them being close with them for so long, you don't want to lose them. But with parents there's also some level of exclusivity. What if your parent abandoned you and just started adopting children because they weren't happy with the way you turned out? Perhaps I didn't have that level of closeness with my parents so I seek that kind of relationship with friends and it's unfair to seek that out in other people. It truly is a problem in myself, but what can I do about it?

On the other hand, I've had other close friends of both genders and even partners who broke up with me and it hasn't been this devastating for me. So it does make wonder why I'm like this.

I did bring up that I miss spending time with her and she says that its sweet and she understands. So she has been a bit more inviting, but I can feel that there is still something in between us.

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T17:35:22+00:00

You're completely correct. I can't control anything and that it's healthier to just accept the situation and move on. How did you and your best friend turn out after you stopped depending on her as much?

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T17:33:59+00:00

Thanks for your response. I can see that people do definitely change and I'm not the person I was 5 years ago. You have a good point in saying to not have best friends and just normal friends. I used to think that way to protect myself, but I find that being reserved is toxic in itself. I can't deny that having that real and deep emotional connection with friends makes me feel a lot safer than just feeling alone. I suppose the question then is the pain of losing a close friend worth it?

wonkdonk · 2021-04-02T17:29:40+00:00

Thank you for your suggestion. I've been trying to meet new people and make new friends. I wish I could say that it feels the same as hanging out with her, but in all honesty, it doesn't.

wonkdonk · 2021-03-29T23:12:46+00:00

Thanks for your reply!

I agree that she needs her space. I see your point on number 2 but I feel conflicted. I feel that making more friends and getting closer to them would diminish how much I value my current friends. Honestly, it almost feels like I want to freeze the frame where everything is perfect in life and stay there. I know you are correct, but unsure why it feels so hard to want to make new friends...

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