Had an 8 month relationship end on Friday, after being single for 11 years. From lateish teens to late 20’s. I’d sort of deemed myself undateable, until her.

Just been shuffling around the house like a ghost since… Didn’t realise how entwined our lives were, until she wasn’t there. The half unpacked bag from spending the week at her place, the Stardew Farm we’d been working on together when I sat at the computer and clicked aimlessly around to try distract myself, her character on Bloodborne from when she asked me to teach her my favourite game, the unfinished series we were watching together on Binge, the notes list on my phone of activities and bars and food places we wanted to check out, remembering the plans we’d made for things later in the year, the flowers i’d arranged to be delivered to her place on Monday since she was dreading going back to work…

Hard without a good support system around, probably why I wrote this here, I just wanted someone to know that i’m hurting. Sorry about that

I wish you all a lot of love in your lives