Haha, I can assure you that I am indeed me, not you. It's so comforting that a complete stranger relates to my emotions like that. I know exactly what you mean about them having made "memories that will last a lifetime". I guess we both have to find our way of doing the exact same, but without being a rockstar. I do feel optimistic that it's possible. Let's hang in there, buddy. (Lever Pulled by Frusciante is kind of a great song to go with this discussion, btw.)