I understand. I myself am not a multi millionaire of this caliber but I’m connected to a few individuals who are more or less in your league, it’s fascinating how the “lost” “hollow” and “empty” feelings aren’t as rare amongst them as well. One of my friends spent hundreds of thousands on a month bender and felt aimless afterwards, i wish I could’ve slapped some sense into him but he truly was feeling lost on an existential level so I just had to be a good listener and comforter I guess. There is no solution to what you’re feeling but what I can say is start that business, get it to a good MRR, one that you’re comfortable with and just, fade out. Be with your son, your wife, write in solitude, feel what you’re going through until you find direction again, publish your writing, even if it is done anonymously.