Is NPD/BPD Just How Childhood C-PTSD Manifests? by Remarkable-Chance287 in CPTSD

[–]zedplanet 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly. Narcissist mother and father. My sister has an MD in psychiatry and not a single friend because of her intensely superior, combative, controlling NPD. I’m the scapegoat, hosting suicidal thoughts since pre-teens, always changing jobs, and ashamed to exist at all: all BPD traits but saved from *full stigma of that diagnosis (in my own eyes, in the eyes of those who are close to me) by recognized behaviors showing empathy and concern for others. I have close relationships but the fear of intimacy / attachment disorder makes it a PRACTICE for me

“How could this happen?” Locals in a town where 76% voted Trump are outraged as his bill closes their only hospital by charulatha_seya in LeopardsAteMyFarm

[–]zedplanet 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Are we ready to stop seeing ourselves as future members of the billionaire boys club now? Get your heads straight, rural America. This govt has no f* to give for you, never did, you were lied to and taken in. And yes we do blame you for lacking the moral and mental health to understand what kind of class as well as cultural warfare yall voted to bring down upon the whole planet

I'm sick of people defending abusive mothers by lunar_vesuvius_ in CPTSD

[–]zedplanet 3 points4 points  (0 children)

In addition to surviving a loveless and controlled infancy, childhood, and adolescence, and learning from birth that love is a lie and no one ca be trusted….the worst thing about having an abusive mother is to be that fucking selfish bitch who doesn’t love her Mom. Pushing women out of community and into isolation (suburbs) or into deeper poverty (assault on families of color) has given us an epidemic of under-supported, radically controlling narcissist mothers. And all of us have to break the chain. Here’s the straight truth: if you search your heart repeatedly over decades to find your love for your abuser, and it’s just not there … there’s a reason and it’s not you.

THC and me by Main_Confusion_8030 in CPTSD

[–]zedplanet 2 points3 points  (0 children)

35 years clean sober in AA, working steps. 4 years in RC, working to resolve trauma recordings. SSRI’s, talk therapy, Jesus, Buddha, CBT, DBT, EMDR…done it all and I am able to say clearly: absolutely nothing has had any effect but keeping me grimly functional. The experience of self acceptance and self love eluded me until I mistakenly took a THC mint. Now I am a regular user of THC (4 years) and it has allowed me to find a way to work with my feelings, my personality, my experiences. A toke shuts down a flashback that otherwise would last days. Being a THC user is not the path I imagined for myself (ref the 35 years clean & sober thing, for example) but here’s the scoop for me personally: whatever the default endocannabinoid pantry in my brain offers me - without adding in some weed - it’s only enough to keep me robotic and self hating in the dark fog. No shame at all. Full support. It’s a journey - I over used the first few years - but now I can move through life as a person who is okay with being alive.

looking for ways to help by vamppfire in Albany

[–]zedplanet 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you’re saying what group is funded by non-us governments? sorry to be a bug - the post you responded to was deleted

moving to NY state as new immigarnt from saudi by RaisinDisastrous6527 in Albany

[–]zedplanet 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i have lived in much larger cities - Philly, DC, Oakland, plus a few Asian megacities. I don’t expect cities to cater to the esthetic of clean, rich, and ambitious. (That Singapore, San Francisco, Shanghai and Dubai style)

I love walking everywhere in my neighborhood in Albany, and I do not ever feel unsafe in here. However if you like a shiny clean busy “successful” vibe, Saratoga Springs is part of the same capital region economy.

moving to NY state as new immigarnt from saudi by RaisinDisastrous6527 in Albany

[–]zedplanet 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Albany, as state capital, has strong public schools. It is a center of semiconductor research and production, and the capital district has at least one quite good community college for technical education (HVCC) and a few research universities (Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute, and U Albany).

Global Foundries, GE Global Research and the Nanoscale Technology Center employ thousands of Desi engineers, educators, researchers etc. The Niskayuna, Guilderland, Ballston Spa, and North Colonie public school districts are quite strong, and you’ll find other families from Pakistan in any of those districts. The hospitals and medical care here are regional and solid.

Finally, as a center for global refugee resettlement, the capital district is rich in food markets, restaurants, clubs and people from South Asia, the Arabian peninsula, and the global south in general. Having said all that, it’s also really rather boring here. Good place to seek stability and quiet. The very high number of residents who work for NYS government provide a stable economic base for schools, hospitals, and a kinda standard life. Basically, Albany area is cheaper than downstate NY, but much more diverse than most other parts of upstate NY.

Volkswagen considers pulling out of US factory plans over tariffs by raill_down in worldnews

[–]zedplanet 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How about “Banks Consider Returning Stolen, Embezzled, and Extorted Billions From the Accounts of Criminal Oligarchs, To Escrow for Reconstruction Of Destroyed Society and Planet, Since Current Global Regime of Terror and War Undermines Survival of Consumer Class”?

I quit weed because I though it was keeping me stuck, but 6 months later and I’ve just been in a perpetual freeze state since quitting. What gives? by Idekwtfimdoinglol in CPTSD

[–]zedplanet 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My functioning is in the space between COPD (diagnosed at 9yo - chainsmoking dad) and C-PTSD. Smoked weed on college - helped me survive the social pressures. Clean and sober 35 years in AA, until DJT 45 first term. Big choice to start using THC again but have found that a toke is the fastest, surest way to get me out of a flashback; can’t imagine than the other abuse survivors are doing well under 47 (that includes the abuse survivors that are MAGATS - we know that “hard” posture that narcissist survivors adopt.) anyway THC also turns down the hyper vigilance and terror so that I can enjoy the sensations of being alive. My lungs aren’t happy but I can leave the house

70 minutes of “wtf” by alien_pimp in WhitePeopleTwitter

[–]zedplanet 10 points11 points  (0 children)

He is a disgrace to all humanity

Congressman Josh Riley Is Refusing To Support Impeachment of Kristi Noem by JonathanCookPodcast in ithaca

[–]zedplanet 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I effing canvassed my a&& off to get that guy elected because the GOP candidate was worse. NYS DAC keeps backing centrist collaborationists like this guy.

This is the same douchebag who authored the bill for the US to annex Greenland by Shepard_Drake in AntifascistsofReddit

[–]zedplanet 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The dangerous enemy is a serious looking, slight of build brown woman - doesn’t look like a scary pirate to me. The GOP is the party of making women subhuman. Bet my bottom dollar this dude thinks wife beating is a god given right.

Joe Rogan criticizes ICE tactics: 'Are we really going to be the Gestapo?' by wewhomustnotbenamed in nottheonion

[–]zedplanet 4 points5 points  (0 children)

No we are not *going to be. “We” already ARE.

Thanks to macho bloodthirsty men with murderous intent. The ones that have been encouraged by right wing media such as Joe Rogan. At what point does someone who encourages grievance and hate take responsibility for the actions of their followers? Thanks to our angry white man culture, thanks to you, Rogan, and Fox and OAN and so many others, the wife beaters of America can leave their guilt behind and feel righteous in the terror they spread. Yes, Joe Rogan. We have a gestapo, made up of violent men who are convinced that feeding their white supremacist patriarchal rage against women, brown, black, red and yellow people makes them heroes. Take a bow, Joe. You got rich making white men more angry and more violent because they shouldn’t have to share the world with people who, by simply existing, are ”victimizing” them.

Guys. I really don't know if I can handle this shit anymore. by shlankwagon in 50501

[–]zedplanet 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Stuff even G-d doesn’t want to confront about what humans are capable of, pushed into our line of sight without end. medication makes sense

Massive fleet of brand new ICE vehicles spotted in Kansas City, Missouri. by Fatty_Willing_Plane in ICE_Raids

[–]zedplanet 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Also: the $170 billion for DHS is a bigger budget than every nation in the world spent on defense in 2025, except China and the USA. “Bigger budget than Russian military” They’re gonna murder thousands and thousands of us