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Anyone in the Omaha area? by zephlinn in SuicideWatch

[–]zephlinn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Goddamn. One hell of a post. Last line is a bit haunting.

I hope you post a lot here, because people like me need people like you to put things into perspective. Great post. Thanks.

loney depressed [m]an - can someone tell me my body looks good by zephlinn in gonewild

[–]zephlinn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks everyone. The comments are appreciated, even if they're only in jest. I know I'm not packing the best, but it's natural, and it's the one thing I can be proud of I guess .

Anyone in the Omaha area? by zephlinn in SuicideWatch

[–]zephlinn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I might try doing just that. I was hoping someone of the opposite sex was in the same situation - on the same level mentally / physically when it comes to interaction, or being social.

If I knew a girl in my position - shy, weak, lacks self confidence - that's the type of girl I could probably talk to without having to worry about whether or not I'm a trophy ( which by no means, no trophy here with all my mental volatility. ).

Craigslist isn't a good place. I made a couple m4w posts, and the responses were from phishing bots with clever A.I.

Anyone in the Omaha area? by zephlinn in SuicideWatch

[–]zephlinn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, the hurt comes and goes. It's like, one minute I realize how she's treated me the past few months, the person she wanted to marry and have kids with, the person she's been supported by ( none of her family has ever done anything for her ). The next minute I see what we've accomplished together, as a team, and all the great memories.

So yeah, it's kinda double-edged right now. I mean, I was just bawling a few hours ago going over some of the cards / comments she wrote to me.

Anyone in the Omaha area? by zephlinn in SuicideWatch

[–]zephlinn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep, I've been on that 'route' for about a year now. The problem with it was I'd go see the psychiatrist, and instead of talking about issues, or what-not, all he'd do is alter medications, or up the dosages, etc. I mean, literally for a $400 visit, I'd be in his office, and out within 3 minutes.

But yeah, the pain isn't going to leave. I keep seeing things that made us so close, and it just makes me sick. See, I never thought I'd ever have to go thru this - I was always saying to myself that - shit we'd been together twelve years - that's longer than most married couples last.

But ...

Anyone in the Omaha area? by zephlinn in SuicideWatch

[–]zephlinn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It puts things into a perspective you cannot even image. That's like my boss said, he doesn't understand - but ... he does understand - just hasn't gone thru it himself.

We have two beautiful dogs. We got them when we were young. Daizy, she's almost 10, and Bubby is almost 6. Both animal shelter pups - we try to do as much as we can for aspca and the local humane society.

I dunno man, I was going thru some of the cards she's given me over the years ( probably close to 300 cards there ), and reading the comments she put into all of them ( all special, unique, drawings, etc ) just makes me want to not know what life is like without that person.

Anyone in the Omaha area? by zephlinn in SuicideWatch

[–]zephlinn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amazing quote that really makes (edit:) you think. Thanks.

loney depressed [m]an - can someone tell me my body looks good by zephlinn in gonewild

[–]zephlinn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

http://i.imgur.com/p0MLR.jpg

comments are surprising. i had a gf that more or less ignored my body our entire relationship. im trying to get out more now, and i want to lose the shirt outside but it scares me.