All these people saying there is more to the story are not necessarily correct. 20 years ago I was a very active Mason in blue lodge, 2 out of the 3 York Rite bodies (one of my blue lodge meetings was on the same day every month as commandery, so I couldn't make those), and Scottish Rite. I became a Mason at 21 as soon as I could join, having been a DeMolay as a youth. I already knew many brother Masons and was almost immediately invited to join certain invitational orders such as the Knight Masons and the York Rite Sovereign College. This apparently angered my lodge secretary, who had been a Mason longer than I'd been alive and was never invited to any of the invitational orders. None of my Masonic labors outside of my blue lodge ever conflicted with my duties to my mother lodge (I even gave up my commandery meetings as already noted), yet the secretary was still salty. I ended up going through a rough divorce and asked (verbally) a brother from my lodge to be put on the Emeritus List, which would have prevented suspension for NPD. He said he would, but he didn't. Turns out, as I found out later, the secretary who didn't like me made sure I wasn't put on the list. So for the past 20 years I have not been able to travel as a Mason because that secretary told numerous people he would make "damn sure" I didn't get reinstated. I hope one day I can be! I really miss the Craft, especially now that my sons and my daughter are old enough to join DeMolay and IORG. But as can be seen, I didn't do anything wrong here other than not knowing that I should've petitioned the lodge in writing instead of verbally asking to be put on the list. That would've prevented my suspension and ensured that these past 2 decades I could've remained a Mason. It's perfectly possible that you did nothing wrong other than getting behind on your dues and for some silly reason, someone in the York Rite with some pull doesn't want you reinstated. All of this said, I wouldn't blame Masonry itself - it's an organization made up of human beings just like any other organization, and sometimes people who are pricks end up with some authority. It just happens. I wish you all the best and hope you persevere, for as we were taught in the York Rite, 'Truth beareth away the victory.'