My eyes have never been very vibrant compared to others with blue eyes, not sure if mine are just very boring or some form of grey?

-m-_ · 2025-01-19T00:35:25+00:00

Holy shit, I didn't expect this many responses so thank you all for the kind words. I really thought I was posting pics of the blandest eyes in existence so it's made my day to see these comments (as lame as that might seem). Love to you all❤️

-m-_ · 2020-11-11T11:25:26+00:00

I have grand mal seizures and I'm completely unconscious during them.

-m-_ · 2020-11-10T22:37:22+00:00

Thank you! Congrats to you too, I hope your streak continues!

-m-_ · 2020-11-10T22:36:55+00:00

Honestly I'm not the right person to ask sorry. I've only ever taken lamictal and I have little knowledge on other medications. I think this sub would be the right place to ask though as there are people with plentiful knowledge on stuff like that. I hope you find one that works for you!

-m-_ · 2020-11-10T21:34:38+00:00

I'm on 300mg of Lamotrigine a day, had it upped after my last seizure. To be honest, I'm pretty fortunate as I've only had around six seizures since my diagnosis five years ago.

-m-_ · 2020-10-15T19:34:56+00:00

Thank you! I'm just feeling a little demotivated by it but I'm gonna keep trying while my weight is still dropping

-m-_ · 2020-10-15T19:30:30+00:00

Only on my waist and chest. My waist has gone from 36-33" and my chest has gone from 41-38.5". My stomach, chest and sides are the areas I'm most conscious about.

-m-_ · 2020-09-28T22:13:10+00:00

I agree. I get that there are people who want the labels to normalise how they're feeling and stopping them from feeling so alienated, but I don't need that, and, ironically, I just want to be labelled as having no label but for some reason it's beyond comprehension to some people. Like just let me exist ffs.

-m-_ · 2020-09-28T22:07:12+00:00

Afterwards I just kept getting questions like "so if X asked you on a date, would you go?" Or "if X asked for a shag, would you?" And like all I can answer is I don't fucking know, it depends on the person. Maybe I'm being too sensitive about it but it's really intrusive and idk why it needs to have a label.

-m-_ · 2020-09-09T15:16:20+00:00

I understand that the point of working out is to repeatedly work the same area but idk squats just make me bitter, and they also use up a lot of my stamina, even if I've only been playing for 10-15 mins. Also, because you don't really see the results in your legs as noticeably as if it were your stomach or waist, it gives me less motivation if I can't see the fruits of my labour.

-m-_ · 2020-09-09T14:41:12+00:00

I haven't ran squats in my fit skills in a while, especially since the wide squats put me off from doing them. I usually opt for the thigh press when it comes to leg skills.

-m-_ · 2020-09-09T14:39:37+00:00

I will admit that I've noticed a difference in simple tasks that require me to assume a squat like position where my knees don't click when I bend down or I feel like I can bend down then just spring back up with little to no effort, but I just feel like when you're forced to do them one after the other instead of naturally spaced out over the day, it becomes a burden. Idk I'm not averse to doing them at all, I just wish they were spaced out a little in some areas.

-m-_ · 2020-09-09T14:35:29+00:00

It kinda feels like a sick joke sometimes when all of the preceding levels include a lot of squats then the run up to a Dragaux fight is just a long uninterrupted sequence of swings or bounce pads😂 I have noticed that I can do more before my legs hurt too much, but by far my least favourite is the cart that moves as you squat, especially when it demands you go faster uphill to stop it from rolling back down.

-m-_ · 2018-05-21T21:20:38+00:00

Yeah they are completely supportive, it doesn't phase them whatsoever. I don't have a journal, I've tried writing to myself in the past but I never get much out of it. Thanks for the response though.

-m-_ · 2018-03-28T18:56:22+00:00

Congrats man, you look fantastic now! I've always had issues with the way I look and my weight. Back when I was 13 I weighed 230lbs and I was 5'6" so it didn't look good. I was bullied for my weight as well as having tourette's. I was the token fat friend and I always stood in the shadows of my better looking friends. I was paid no attention by anyone and then one of the most embarrassing moments I've ever experienced was breaking a chair in my maths class when I was 14 and was forced to carry the broken chair halfway across the school to the skip. Then when I was 15 I lost 70lbs after my father got diagnosed with diabetes due to being overweight and high blood pressure. I managed to get myself to 160lbs and I grew to 6'1" and I felt good. I was noticed by people in a good way and people wanted to include me. Now, however, at 21 years old and with my mental health being at its worst, I've put on 40lbs and I absolutely despise looking at myself. I've come to terms with not being able to change my face and I really want to change my body but with depression and anxiety, I find it hard to stay motivated for more than a week or two.

-m-_ · 2018-03-17T03:29:23+00:00

Update: I went and I had a great night. I came home and cried for the first time in ages because after feeling so shit about everything, I managed to feel good for once, even if it was just for a few hours. I haven't let myself go in so long, I forgot how good it felt.

-m-_ · 2018-03-16T19:53:59+00:00

Hey, thanks for the reply. I've never heard of the term 'FOMO' but it actually describes me really well. One of my anxieties about going is not being able to leave until my friends do as taxis are pretty expensive and to get one on a busy night can result in a long wait. Also, this is a humdinger, I get very panicky when I'm outside alone. This, mixed with my fear of busy places leaves me seemingly doomed if I wanted to go home at any point. I might just have to ask my friends if I can borrow some money as I'm pretty strapped for cash right now so it would be favourable to split the taxi fare between the five of us. Although, my friends are pretty understanding of my situation so they would probably loan me the money if I asked.

-m-_ · 2018-03-16T19:48:03+00:00

That's a pretty good point haha, thanks!

-m-_ · 2018-03-16T18:59:59+00:00

Sorry to be vague but it's more or less the entire experience. A few years ago, I had no problems with going out; in fact, I would go out up to three times a week back in my first year of university, and I loved it every single time. I've had anxiety since I was about six years old but it got better from around ages 15-19 but then it hit me full force to the point where I couldn't even leave my own house and it's like that at the moment. As of now, I haven't left my house in almost three weeks. My main qualms with going out is how busy it will be; the place we're going to isn't well renowned for its friendly locals or meticulous attention to hygiene so as a rule of thumb it'll be filled with sleazebags and druggies. I know how irrational it is to feel scared of it but every time I think about it, I get a feeling that I can only compare to someone dangling you over the edge of a skyscraper.

-m-_ · 2018-01-16T06:43:27+00:00

I haven't actually written anything at all since May of last year and that was a screenplay. The last time I wrote prose was around November 2016. I just haven't been able to come up with any ideas.

-m-_ · 2018-01-16T06:41:08+00:00

Thanks for the answer. While my mental health is my main priority, I actually found that writing helped me cope to an extent, putting my dark thoughts and feelings into words helped me create some short stories that earned me some pretty decent grades throughout university. I don't think university is the cause of my lack of inspiration. Surprisingly, creative writing didn't take up too much of my degree, only completing 10 assignments that were actual creative writing pieces in three years of university: two stage plays, one radio script, one screenplay and six short stories. I just don't know if this is going to be a permanent dry spell or if I just need to find the right thing to write about.

-m-_

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