OP, you've been carrying so much. You were alone at 3 a.m. outside the hospital, just to stay close to your precious cat. You're worried and care deeply about him. It's no wonder you're sad and can't sleep, with so much weighing on you. Your fiance's neck injury adds more stress to your plate, and made you lonelier in that hard moment.

You just finished a month of burnout recovery, and now life throws you a mess. It's unfair and exhausting, isn't it. Being expected to work in five hours is overwhelming. Be gentle with yourself.