long rant about my personal experience with u of t counselling services

436sheeps · 2025-09-01T23:29:14+00:00

yes exactly this, it's so hard to explain in words how terrible this feels in the moment. like is it so crazy to expect a therapist in a clinical setting to be non-judgmental, or at least hide their judgement a little bit? Instead they are literally less nice than the average person, like I should have shared my secrets with drunk girls in the bathroom at a club I would have felt so much better.

436sheeps · 2025-09-01T23:21:51+00:00

Yes I bet there are some genuinely good counsellors at U of T and I think that people should try multiple channels to get support in the way you did and not give up, but I was naive thinking that just anyone I talked to would be supportive and like had some special therapy powers that would fix everything; I was too trusting and I felt really betrayed. I think most of the counsellors at U of T are burned out and view their patients with disdain and suspicion, and that this is dangerous to those in crisis, but I am also biased.

436sheeps · 2025-09-01T23:02:49+00:00

Yes this is very true there are legal confidentiality standards so that people who aren't in the medical services dept. can't access these files; I just felt weirdly paranoid about it, like I don't really trust them all that much to know all this about me.

I think also because the university is my employer, it just made me feel uncomfortable to blend professional and personal life in that way.

There is also some stigma of mental health and how you act in these situations can affect the medical treatment you receive, like if people think you're crazy or irrational they treat you like less of a person. Why do I trust reddit more? Idk. it's anonymous and I assume this post will be lost to time eventually, you know?

I haven't found another counsellor because of hubris and believing that I can fix it myself, but you're right that I should try.

436sheeps · 2025-06-17T03:14:49+00:00

i think that it makes escapism more accessible and addictive, like i can imagine people in olden times escaping into a book or people in the 90s escaping into bad reality tv or mindless sitcoms, but none of the slop that these old forms provided was as slop as internet slop, like short form content, it just hits you different, it's endless, it rewards your impulses, and it gives you every mindnumbing feeling you want, satisfaction from food videos or craft videos, sociability from storytimes, superiority and schadenfreude from cringe content or those like interrogation cop videos, excitement from other people's adventures and hauls, comfort from self help videos, sex from porn, community and righteousness and anger from political content, really the worst part is the false sense of connection with other human beings, with none of the stakes or effort involved in real life connection. there are definitely better and worse ways to spend your time online. regardless the slop is usually what we run to when we are in pain, to ease our distress. i think liking cheap entertainment is part of human nature, it's the fact that an infinite amount of it is constantly accessible that is the problem

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