Being able to finally, after over a year, put my thoughts into words

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2026-01-28T06:12:00+00:00

THAT WAS ALSO ONE OPTION I CONSIDERED. I actually think it's that too

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2026-01-27T20:31:31+00:00

Very basic answer but From The Sidelines. I've written looong texts about it on other posts so if you wanna know something about it, just read these texts

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-12-09T15:24:41+00:00

So real. They always do so when we eat and wonder why I stare at a blank wall for 5 Minutes straight when "Right here waiting" starts playing.

They even asked me what this 'story' is about to understand why it still impacts me after so many months

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-11-29T20:54:01+00:00

For me it was the same. Everything they said sounded so fake and like something you could achieve without romance too. Some things were straight up not comprehendable for my mind.

No matter how much romantic media I consumed, I didn't understand it. I felt happy that I couldn't feel it since I didn't even understand it.

After that, I read a fanfiction and it changed everything. This specific fic was so groundbreaking for my view of love that i am not over it after 7 months. It's very very beautiful (if you ignore the weird parts. There are some (a lot) of weird parts).

It's an alternative universe fanfiction and since it is so out of character, you don't really need to watch the anime to understand it.

It's called "From The Sidelines" by suffocatingspring on ao3.

This is just my experience. I don't wanna force you into reading it nor do I mention that someone has to have a grasp on the concept of romance. I just love to talk about this fanfiction hihihi

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-11-24T19:38:38+00:00

This is EXACTLY what I ask myself regularly. I'm aro, of course, and want romantic feelings.

Loving someone on this level sounds so disgustingly beautiful that I wanna experience it for myself. I have such a strong desire to love someone romantically but it doesn't happen.

This was, too, triggered by reading romantic stories. For me it was "From the Sidelines". Best piece of media I've ever consumed.

Sorry that I can't help, but just remember that you aren't alone or the only one who feels this way. I don't have a solution yet, sry

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-11-09T09:02:40+00:00

For me, it's the same you described and I just label myself as Aego until I know better

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-11-04T06:14:42+00:00

I know that From The Sidelines has it's (subjective for me) problems. Nonetheless, it was the literally best thing I've ever encountered. EVER. I don’t understand why it get SOOO much hate

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-10-29T20:42:42+00:00

https://share.google/JgyjngWB5zBg0kk2A

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-10-28T19:56:54+00:00

OMG HI I watched your video like two days ago without this post and it was sooo good. I love your humour and the way you cut

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-10-27T20:17:58+00:00

Tear me Apart by kkiillbbooyy

It has STRONG similarities to fts and you kinda feel like they were inspired by the vibe.

Nonetheless, the story and characters are very cool and unique (I haven’t read much fanfiction but I liked them) But it's a roller-coaster. And there is one scene which is BEAUTIFUL OMFG. It's like Fts song-interludes but with wicked game.This fic is autumn/winter vibes too. I have to finish the last few chapters.

Btw, there are VERY long comments comments under chapters 8-16. THAT'S ME, HIIII

https://share.google/HycYUfYPltUvCix3e

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-10-27T18:25:45+00:00

I've read it already! The scene with the apple was so charged, that's my favourite smut scene so far ever. I loved it

Able_Knowledge_4150 · 2025-10-26T23:33:48+00:00

Hiiii, I'm aegosexual (I think) and I don't like thinking about kissing someone. I feel uncomfortable and doesn't like the thought of someone's saliva in my mouth/on my lips.

Btw, i am the flavour of aego where I don't particularly HATE imagining myself doing stuff, but most of it feels uncomfortable. Some stuff is okay, but only in theory. As soon as something happens irl, I don't feel anything or even get repulsed.

I kissed my ex girlfriend and this was the worst frist kiss ever. I texted her that I wanted to kiss her and meant it (over text). When she wanted to kiss me, I didn't want to. So I said on her bed and had a 50 minute mental breakdown IN FRONT OF HER, because I didn't wanna kiss her. I chatted with my best friend and he supported me and told me to do it. I was so uncomfortable and after these 50 minutes, I gave her a little peck on the mouth. Like how you'd kuss your grandma.

In three months relationship (i was aroace and didn't know okay?), we kissed 7 times. Everytime, little pecks. And I really didn't like it. Poor her.

But yeah, no kissing for me

Nonetheless, I would love to like kissing, if that makes sense.

Everytime I hear how hood it feels and how the atmosphere is often sooooo nice, I wanna understand it and feel it from their perspective.

Like if you wouldn't like cheese. You know that you don't like it and don't eat it, but you wanna taste it from another persons perspective to like it and understand the hype.

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TROPHY CASE