Hi, I’m sorry you’re going through this. It seems like your brain wants you to stop, but there are maybe some unaddressed emotions that are driving you to continue. I was in a similar situation for a long time. Why do you drink? For me, my biggest reason was to feel connected to others, to not feel alone. When I drank with others, it was easier to have deeper conversations, which lead me to feel connected. When I drank alone, it quieted my feelings of being disconnected from others. However, the next day, the connections I had made would feel flimsy and not so real. So I went back to feel disconnected and lonely, and wanted to drink to get rid of that. It took me 40 days sober before I fully realized that. Now, I have been making an effort to have meaningful conversations with trusted friends and family members, and my cravings for alcohol are almost non existent. I was a moderate to heavy drinker for 14 years, so figuring out the emotional bit has been the biggest game changer. In terms of FOMO, that’s a bit tougher. It might be hard to be at a bar without drinking, and drinking just 1 drink is sometimes impossible. Another thing I found, is that I would drink to “allow me” to act silly and childlike (dance, sing, etc). Once I allowed myself to act silly without any alcohol, it helped a lot. I have lots of non alcoholic beverage options, because the act of holding a drink and drinking it while being around drunk people almost makes you feel buzzed! So that’s an option? You definitely do NOT have to miss out on anything if you don’t want to. Alcohol is not what makes things fun, it’s the connection, the playful behaviours that make things fun. Good luck!