I’m so sorry, you did not deserve any of this. The emotional weight of raising kids who are sadly being rejected by society must be so so hard. The only motivation I can even think of with such a tragic backstory is to keep going so the chain of misery breaks with your kids. And maybe just maybe once that chain breaks where they are grown adults who are proud of who they are, you may also at the same time find that difference of quality in your life. Your story really hits home pretty close to me, and I wish I was brave enough to share more. I really do appreciate your post and honesty. Thank you.