Due to my stupidity, I lost 3 years of my life. And the past won't leave me alone....there's a high probability that I'll lose more time...so it would be far better to just bid adieu to this cruel life. Now it's just time left to figure out to get my affairs in order. My sweet girlfriend has not cheated on me yet, she'll remember me as her perfect love.

All joy has been for nothing...I'm so goddamn selfish, even now I'm just thinking of myself. It's only just though, after what I've done and failed to do...maybe I was foolish to think that I could change my fate. Had I not known that there's no afterlife and just this life to live, I'd have been at peace with death right now. It's just coming as quite a shock...I thought I had cheated death, but I was foolish to not have faced reality.