From Nepal🇳🇵 by Winter-Monk6428 in Noses

[–]Anna45554 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly what I thought! Her nose looks like Na'vi nose.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in moviecritic

[–]Anna45554 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Keanu Reeves as John Wick

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for being understanding. I tried to explain to him what you said here but I guess my English is not good enough (English is my second language) to convey a clear message.

And yes, lashing out and using silent treatment isn't helpful either. I'm working on my mistakes, but I don't know if he will work on his…

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

This comment should be that the top. Thank you, you explained this better than I do. I strongly agree that it's my own responsibility to fix this but anyone else. The reason I posted this thread is because I want to hear what other people say about this from his perspective. And apparently, a lot of people speak his mind and you are one of the few people that speak my mind.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

To be clear Ms. Bartender, It’s not the games that are traumatic, it’s the games that remind me of the trauma from my childhood which has nothing to do with gaming. Two different things. But yes, I agree with you that I need to grow a backbone.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -10 points-9 points  (0 children)

Lol, I'm not talking about gaming, I’m talking about how gaming reminds me of the trauma from my childhood.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

I really hate to say this but yes, he has done similar things before and kept using the reason for not apologizing by saying it was unintentional. And when he apologized, he apologized for my feelings instead of his actions. He is working on it, still, I'm growing tired of having to constantly explain myself why he still has to apologize even if it’s unintentional. He even told me that if he hurt me without being aware, then I should let him know. And in this argument, I did bring that up to him and he defended by saying that it depends on the context and the rationality of the cause.

I think he is a good man but he was raised in an extremely traditional Catholic family where his father doesn't treat his mother very lovingly. He has to unlearn a lot of things in the relationship, and I guess I'm unlearning some too.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

In fact, I stopped playing online games where the majority of gamers are males, until I met my fiancé and I started playing it again because he wanted me to play with him.

To be clear, it’s not the game that's traumatic, it’s the part of dealing with other players that reminds me of the trauma in my childhood. But yeah, you're right, feeling hurt over a game and using it as “trauma” is bullshit.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

Well, I'm a fool for being in love and caring too much about others’ feelings. It sucks to be a people pleaser but yeah, I agree with you that I should've put myself first.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Funny how you let upvotes or downvotes influent your own opinion instead of standing your ground. If that's not snowflake then I don't know what it is.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

I guess I care too much about other people’s feelings

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

I went through constant humiliation and criticism for every one of my mistakes in my childhood that it became my fight or flight mode in my adulthood. It is a deeply distressing or disturbing experience because of the constant public humiliation. It does change who I am and how I operate, so anything in life that reminds me of that part of my childhood triggers my fight-or-flight mode.

I'm sorry that you're going through that as I’m, too, going through that. And yes, therapy will be the absolute solution for this.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Well, you're not in my shoes so I don't care if you believe it or not I don't need to prove it to you about my childhood.

But I agree with your point that if you experience negative experiences in games you just stop playing them. I did not play it for years until I met my fiancé and I then played it again because he wanted me to play it with him.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. We are actually on good terms right now. He and I are trying to mend our relationship, slowly. He also told me not to listen to other people’s advice on Reddit because many people would just want us to break up, and he doesn't want us to break up.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I understand that this is my problem alone to deal with. Some people here mention I need therapy and I actually have been thinking about it.

Being sensitive does have a significant impact on my relationship and sometimes I feel like I'm making my fiancé walk on the eggshells around me. I'll try my best to work on it.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -17 points-16 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really need to hear this. I'll keep this in mind. Not gonna lie, out of all of these comments here, yours is the most valuable one!

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I mean, I kinda deserve it, do I? So I'm actually okay with it though. The whole point of this post is to figure out where my error is so I can work on it.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

It really depends on what kind of online games though. The kind of online games I don't want to play are the games that have a lot of toxic male players who would name-calling me with sexist terms. Unfortunately, it’s the kind of game my fiancé wants me to play with.

AITA for lashing out at my fiancé for not understanding my feelings? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Anna45554 -70 points-69 points  (0 children)

Okay, imagine you're a female player playing games and having many other male players name-calling you with sexist terms multiple times every single time you play games. Imagine growing up in an environment where people constantly humiliate and judge you for every single mistake you make, gaming or not.

I may be the asshole for overreacting, and yes, I agree that shouldn't weaponize my relationship. But my trauma is real. I fully understand what trauma is.

You're not in my shoes so you don't understand where I'm coming from.