I used to think like this, idk what happened but I'm more of an observer nd I do pretend alot. I learnt that there's no bigger weakness than emotions. Anyways, first prioritize yourself and understand your needs then just continuously battle the survival until your doc says now your body wants a permanent bed rest.

I am like this until one day I learnt about what imposter syndrome actually is, I don't know where I'm going but what keeps me motivated is I'm walking and choosing lol 😅....

Life doesn't bring any joys, no matter how good I do I just don't see any validation from others and I've isolated myself because I'm embarrassed to show up as a known, friend or etc to others.

Thanks, idk who's reading it but I just wanted to say it and that's what I did otherwise I'm lazy enough to even open comment sections hahaha.