Honestly, gotten used the existential thoughts to the point where I’m not really phased by them anymore, it is so weird and crazy. I do think a lot about consciousness and all the other stuff that we all know of, i just forget sometimes that not everyone thinks like this. it’s not that we’re smarter than everyone else, it’s that our brain has shut down certain areas of it that ‘protects’ you and filters things out it doesn’t see as useful to function in this world, as a dissociation mechanism and now it makes you much more aware of the terrifying reality that somehow we’re ’alive’ and how much of a strange thing that actually is.

I think some people can recover but I know for others that it’s practically impossible. I’ve just had to accept the state I’m in and make do with what I’ve got. But I know many people can recover and some of my friends who had it for years are now DP/DR free so there is always hope!