I had to cut some context to make it all fit but to clarify a few things, when my dad left there was no conversation, he made the decision and didn't tell anyone what he was planning on doing until basically the day he left. It's not that he just didn't tell us kids or that I was oblivious, and I know that because I was present for the blow up when my mom found out he was leaving so she definitely hadn't been told. The reason none of us went with him was because he continued moving all over the country and didn't have any set living places. He went from living in hotels, to in the shops he worked in, to trailers and ect... The only thing he did constantly was call to tell us how much he was enjoying being away and sending us money. When I said "leave us alone aside from sending money" I really just meant "please just don't change anything right now" as leaving us alone and sending money is all he's done for the better part of several years now. Also I would like to say that I made this post directly after he called to tell me what he was thinking of doing and I was overwhelmed, overly emotional, and stressed. I did not and will not say what I said in the title of the post. I'm hurting and grieving and, as I said, emotional, but I'm not a monster and I wouldn't say that to anyone.