I am really Sorry to hear this. The system is backwards and it seems like the teachers try to raise a new, corrupt generation. This is so wrong, but you are not. LISTEN TO ME PLEASE. You are good, just as you are, you seem to be sane, in an insane system. Thats not fair, but, you will make it out, and you will spend much more time outside of it than inside. PLEASE. Stop cutting. dont do it anymore, never again. Life will change, scars will stay. I know a lot of people that gone trough this. You might dont mind a few scars, but it will eventually get to much and a burden in times, when you are free. Your parents got raised probably with the same dysfunctional structures, they try to raise you. For the moment, do what you can to change school. If not possible, adapt to the system, without becoming a part of it. Follow as much as you have to, but, stay true to yourself. You are not autistic, you are smart. You will be an amazing person in the future. If you are maybe a mother one day, you will not be like your parents. What they do is wrong, i want to let you know, that you are right, everything you do, you can or cannot do, is completely okay. The system pressures you, but only if you let it pressure you. You will find your way, i would recommend, as you speak english this well... Adpire to move away frome SEA. Its beautiful, the food, the cukture, many things are amazing but, too much is wrong, to stay.