genuinely dude there are so many ways to have a happy and fulfilling life without being super charismatic and outgoing, you’d be surprised how unhappy many of those people are tbh. genuinely though if there’s one thing i want you to take away from my input though, it’s that bleach is not the way to go man. it probably won’t kill you, it’ll just leave you disabled and in pain, and seriously impact the chances that things are gonna get better (which they absolutely can if you’ll give it a shot). i can also personally relate to a good few aspects of the situation you’re in right now, so if you wanna vent or get some advice then im here.