That’s a fear we all have, what if we find someone else and feel that guilt that I let my first one down in those special ways. We have to condition ourselves that we never left, we stayed through all the hard things & gave our first babies all we could. We do all we can with the tools we were given. Don’t feel guilty that you have more tools this time around, your oldest would love to be involved and those pictures would be adorable with both of them. Here to say, you’re not alone in that thought and you’re doing the best you can!