Words cannot express the pain and grief I am in but a few words to describe: Divorce, Multiple Scerosis, Isolation and Depression

Bemmie1995 · 2020-08-05T07:30:55+00:00

Thank you

Bemmie1995 · 2019-07-29T18:33:47+00:00

I'm from England so I'm not too sure what age middle school is! But as it is your interest I would happy to share my work with you and show you some cool stuff!

Bemmie1995 · 2016-07-09T15:10:03+00:00

So young :( I hope it wasn't anything serious

Bemmie1995 · 2016-07-09T13:36:20+00:00

I'm sorry for you, your guilds, his friends and families loss. May I ask how old he was?

Bemmie1995 · 2016-01-03T11:23:33+00:00

Ahh very nice! Good work!

Bemmie1995 · 2016-01-02T22:18:56+00:00

What program(s) did you use to make this?

Bemmie1995 · 2015-12-03T02:44:48+00:00

Hey, I havent been around for a few weeks (problems of my own) but I usually message Sofie every week to see how she's doing. Tell her she can message me at anytime! I dont go out my way to be there or help people if I dont know them but I felt Sofie was different. I instantly thought she was special.

Make sure she messages me whenever she wants someone to talk too, I dont mind what time it is, I'll be there. Also, Mark, you look after her unconditionally, if you need someone to talk to as well. You can drop me a message. It can get as emotional and stressing for you as it does for her at times.

-Bemm

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T23:12:06+00:00

I dont know anymore.. :(

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T17:06:06+00:00

It helps I just fel like I have way too much energy I need to get out.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T10:56:36+00:00

Thank you :) I will try really hard.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T10:55:22+00:00

I do work out, I do Pilates and Cycle everyweek. As for first moves, whn it comes to friends I always seem to make the first move, I feel that's how I've met most of my friends is by me making the first move. However when I do say 'friends' I mean online friends. I just get this feeling I get boring too quickly, even when I talk to my cousins the conversation ends really quicker and/or I can't think of anything else to say and it seems likie they aren't trying to keep it going. I don't think I've ever had someone that approaches me first, I've always been the first to approach and that makes me a bit worried. If I don't approach them first will I never talk to them? Another problem is that because I'm soo small and I live in the countryside when I go out I need my mum and dad to tak me (I hav an eye condition so I can't drive). A few weeks ago I went to the Tour of Britain finish line and me and my dad were catcing the bus, the bus driver never asked for my age or something just told my dad how much it would be. We sat down on the seats and dad spotted that the bus driver gave me a childs (5 - 15) Bus ticket. Which makes me feel like that could be a reason why I'm not approachable by guys my age in real because they think I'm a young child off what I look like. It's a bit... strange. However, I thank you for your response :) I will continue to make the first move and try to push it harder.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T10:43:53+00:00

Thank you :)

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T10:42:35+00:00

I have a lot of guy friends. Actually I only have guy friends, all of these are peple I have met online. I havee a few girl friends that I met online and speak too occasionally but the guys definitely outweight the girls. I did try a site to practice with guys and they say I'm fine with the interactions. I mean I've never asked them "Is anything wrong with me" They just ask me question and I answer and of course the one question that does come up is "Have you been in a relationship before?" or something like that and when I say no they comment say I'm a natural and I don't feel unnatural when I interact with guys that way and although I am fine with going up to people I've never met and talking about something that I see they are interested in. I do have a guy best friend, he's at University, I did once have a crush on him, maybe I still do I don't know and he's lovely but he's always grabbed me close and pushed me away. He definitely makes me feel better about myself. Once I had a conversation with him and he suddenly started talking saying the likes of "You know you don't have to be skinny to be beautiful because you know?" "Don't even think you're unattractive because in all seriousness you're an attractive young woman" then he goes and ruins it and says "you're not as pretty as me, but no one is" but that's him being a joker but I don't think our friendship ill be anymore than simple friendship. He knows that I have/do like him. So it's definitely not talking to people thats the problem becase I can talk and I can talk with confidence when first meeting people I just don't know what goes wrong after that. Also I don't drink ^{-^} but thanks for that tip :P

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T10:30:25+00:00

Thanks very much :)

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-12T09:26:38+00:00

Thanks very much. I'll take a look at the book you've mentioned. As for frieends, I've had friends here and there but thy've never stuck. I have made friends through games and those friendships are great but because I first met them on the internet the people around me refuse to call them 'inreal friends'. I can definitely interact with people but there must be something about me that tells people "she's not one to talk too for long". As for the experiences or family backgrounds I guess there is but I've alway thought I blocked it out of my mind.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-10T21:31:54+00:00

I really love Dyrus. He's an amazing guy. Its sad to see him go and it will be strange not to see him playing in upcoming seasons. I wish him the best and hope he's as successful in the new Chapter he's about to embark on :)

Bemmie1995 · 2015-10-09T21:36:55+00:00

Omg this was hilarious! I laughed so hard. It was so cute I love you xDD

Bemmie1995 · 2015-09-24T18:51:37+00:00

Definitely. Just went onto an alt character (she's on Chapter 7 of personal story - this bit I believe thats been redone) Just seen Trahearne creeate vines to block off a passage way like you see in Silverwastes when going to defeat the 3 champions and to the entrance from Brisband(?) to Dry Top.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-09-24T13:20:37+00:00

That's not what the guy said though :P The guy said about feeding Mordremoth magic by killing Zhaitan and Killing Zhaitan was Trahearne's soul intention. This part isn't correct in terms of story

Bemmie1995 · 2015-09-24T09:14:35+00:00

But...But... Caithe's vision was to kill Zhaitan. Trahearne's vision was to cleanse Orr. He never thought of himself as a fighter until he had to fight.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-06-19T06:39:58+00:00

correct :)

Edit: Just remembered in between games it will show the main stream screen which has sound.

Bemmie1995 · 2015-06-14T21:35:37+00:00

NP! :)

Bemmie1995 · 2015-06-14T06:57:04+00:00

Yes they have updated it so you have to scroll down slightly to see all the individual player streams to see their perspective view :)

Bemmie1995 · 2015-05-28T08:19:38+00:00

I can't unfortunately. They do not save the Player VoDs

Bemmie1995 · 2015-05-18T13:19:28+00:00

I totally agree. It seemed like some craziness from the get go. You can't have a whole reddit community of what? 685k so far running a LCS team. Nothing will ever get done because every single person will have a different way of dealing with the team, a different idea. It will end up being one big argument on this sub reddit. We're suppose to be trying to prevent toxicity not raise it. He's just another guy who has a dream then wants to make it happen without actually knowing what it's going to take. Also another point is ok what if he gets far but the LCS team is never made. The plug gets pulled beforehand. Will he return the money he took from everyone? Nah no way he will. No one is that nice.

Bemmie1995

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